its us...

I miss you less when we are like this...

hahahahaha its a funny picture... its miel, me and baby haiiro... first meet up nila (miel & haiiro) hahaahha perti nakung katawa anih... :) another night with myromeo :) with baby haiiro...

unexpected dream...

I am so tired from overtime work dahil sa super lapit nah naming UAT and production this coming November and December. My team is giving our extra effort just to deliver on time, though its just like a normal day to me, OT naman kasi ako parati "The build and runner girl" sabi nga nila, I know my team is counting on me. Just like my normal days I go home late, get my keys and open my little but loving house. I bought a new bed sheet so I render extra mile patience to at least change my beddings. I am too excited to go to sleep kasi naman yon nalang ang regalo ko sa self ko everyday. But before that, I send sms to my BF saying how much i love him and how much I miss him with all the wishes of goodnight. Then its time for me to go to sleep, I don't know why I am being affected with all my dreams pero nakakawindang lang kasi minsan. I dream about my Ex-bf mom, honestly di kami ganun ka close ni ex-mom but we talked naman....The dream goes like this...

" umuwi ako nang CDO for a short vacation, I don't know kung saan ang eksena but me and ex-mom encountered and siya talaga ang unang nakipag usap sa akin. She even ask me hows my life in makati and how's me. I was so touched about the motherly care she showed me and then we had our short chit-chat. In the middle of our conversation she asked apology for what had happen about me and her son. I was stunned and almost cried, bakit siya humingi nang apolgy? I don't even feel sorry about what had happen, maybe it was never meant to be. She even updates me about his son, and even told me that he is in manila to fetch her sister from Europe, then I woke up with a call from taweng then tears filled my eyes. "

I never expected myself or my eyes to respond that way. Maybe my heart says it all, honestly I wanted t talked to him every time I go home in CDO for a short vacation, but its not about getting together with him but I wanted to tell him that I am now doing good and I want to thank him for being a real man when we are together. We have our own individual mistakes but I learn from everything. Sa totoo lang I don't have the guts or even the courage to see him, kaya ko naman puntahan siya sa bahay nila or even sa work niya, I even know asan yong church nila. But hindi ko maggawa because of a lot of things; takot ako baka siya nah mismo ang ayaw akong makita and he will try to avoid me as much as possible,takot din akong may sasabihin siyang masasaktan lang ako, and takot ako sa magiging reaction niya kung makita niya ako. Takot akong masaktan ulit niya, takot nah takot ako dun. I know I much pain I suffered and I thank him for that, kahit naman ganun I appreciate it, I learn how to live when I suffered and die because of love. Cguro takot lang akong masaktan ulit, takot akong masaktan niya ako ulit to be specific. I appreciate the effort of my BF for the extra patience not to hurt me, minsan lang ako ang corny, you can't blame me, my fears is in every corner of my room. haayy naku buhay nga uu, may mga uncontrollable situations nga talaga, but things will be in place, I know... Maybe one day...

on papa's bday...

I am too excited when i booked myself a flight going back to CDO. While looking forward for the said flight things are tough and hard. I need to face all the hard work and overtime just to make it on my flight not to mention that my boss is not allowing me to go home because of our crucial and critical project. But my faith save me again, and I made it to my papa's bday. October 9,2010 is my schedule of departure in manila, my schedule has to be turn up side down just to make it from work and family. I need to work until 3 am and prepare my things for my flight in 8am, I slept for about an hour and then woke up just to be in airport on time. My flight going to CDO is quit good because I spend the whole flight sleeping... hahahhahaha super duper ang pagod ko, hanggang ulo nah... When I arrived in Lumbia airport I need to rush in SM CDO to do my usual grocery- I always make sure I brought everything so that the party for papa will be good as I thought it would be. I called my sister to fetch me at SM because i need a hand for all the groceries I brought and glad my parents together with my spoiled pamangkins fetch me and greeted me with their kisses... October 10,2010 the day we will celebrate papa's bday, and after a long talked and conversation with my sister and mama we decided to celebrate papa's day at the pool. Glad papa agreed with me. It was a nice day and a happy day, I saw how happy papa.,He even mentioned how grateful he was when he saw all of us in his birthday. The party last 2am in the morning and I am sure papa had a happy sleep after that. I also spend quality time with my friends. I know how tired I am of all the things, and hard work I am doing here in manila but the smiles I shared with my family are friends are enough to keep me going. We watch "I DO" which I found it so badoy and corny hahahahaha sorry enchong if I am so honest but thats reality, but I still enjoyed the moment sitting and watching that badoy and corny movie. Wils Bar is the next stop, singing is one of my outlet to let stress get out in my body and chadang ubos lahat nang powers ko. hahahahhahaha... October 12,2010 the day i need to flew back here manila. I woke up around 9 am to eat my breakfast together with my family. it was around 10:30 that me and ailyn need to rush in Greenhills to visit mama(mimi), After that small and silent talk with her, we need to rush to mommy lacson for me to hand my gift but sad to say I never saw her because I thought she has classes to attend, natulog raman diay siya sa iyang long chair... hahahahahahha.... It was a blessing because I need to rush in CTI to have lunch with jv,aisa, and ailyn, after that nice and grateful lunch, I need to be prepared for my flight in going back to a place where my I leave my dreams which I know it will come true. After all the sleepless nights in CDO no one can buy the happiness I felt when I share my life and time with my faith, my family and friends. I will be looking forward for my next trip going home :)