Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Is it okey to cry...? :(

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hay naku past days murag naglisod kog sabot... una i was sick sa akong work nga even natulog ka pukawon lang ka coz you need to answer some information related work as in sa point bitaw nga naa pajud ka sa middle sa imong damgo you need to wake up for a phone call or ayha pa intawon nakapiyong imong mata mumata napud kay naa txt or tawag....waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh. Dili pwede mapalong ang cellphone kay you need to dispatched calls within your area hahay...Maybe this is part sa akong gidawat nga life (nganong nagpa promote ka man inday!) hahay... hahay... soooo if you'll ask me how to define work? mao ni dakong tubag "WORK IS H.E.L.L" HAHAHAHA pero maski inani nih happy paman japun ko. lucky to have this kind of job kay murag pinili lang ang naa anih nga klasi sa work pressure lang jud kaayo pero again package mani uban sa daku nga sweldo daku nga responsibility. hahaist....enough for work...
watta title multiply bah... is it okey to cry? pero di bah okey raman... yeah crying is out of my league limited ang mga times nga makita ko sa akong friends nga muhilak but pains are too hard to carry sometimes... life give you only one choice ,to let those little tears fall down your cheek. Honestly sakit man dawaton pero I know kaya ra nih oi ako pa... Pero i'll admit whats the root of everything. Last Sunday my mom told me that she will visit the hospital for a check up.. it was few months ago that my mom diagnosed by the doctor with a vaginal infection so since then we maintain some medicine to cure my moms pain and suffering. but everyday the situation is getting worst. So this week, My mom took all the laboratory exams and other stuff for us to assure here safety (financially with the help of abby-my sister in CA),when the results is already released the doctor found out that my mom is suffering myoma(Tumor) with a cervical Polyp. I really don't have any idea as for now if how much would cost all of this to be cured pero bahala na si batman... As far sa mga txt coming from my sister tambal lang daw sa karon ang gina maintain, sa coming lab test pa kung unsa sunod nga test... hahay life offer me a bit of everything... whoa! busa unya i'll spend my time nga maka relax sa ko adto ko sa pool, para get together ,para pud mabugnawan akong ulo maski gamay and then tomorrow i'll be more prepared to face life. hahay to be continue, need to stepped out..


Friday, April 10, 2009

3 days vacation??? wheeewww it was fun promise!!!

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3 days vacation in bukidnon is ahhhhh so fun!!! I'm craving for more hahahahahah...Last april 4-6,2009 a good friend of mine invited me for a barangay fiesta, nahimo nana nakong "panata" ang paglaag sa ila every year so mga 3 years ko nanih ginabuhat nga routine and all those visits is fun,but this year whooooaaaa it was amazing!!!! first day was fun.. ordinary day but i enjoy every detAil of the day, nag videoke, nag movie marathon and with all the chika. 2nd day is the day of their patron,people are busy preparing for the thanks giving, and as usual nag cge lang me ug kaon, i make bonding with the younger sister of my friend which is mura nasad naku ug sister a very sweet and loving girl who always gives me a hug which i really love (aminin chang wala lang kay manghod nga girl maong ngita ka sa lain) not to mention nga ako youngest nga girl sa among family... heheheheh. On second day we spend barkada bonding... with the lovers sa akong mga friends that was fun because at least i spend time with their lovers and chit chat with them also na tripan namo sila with the help of mama (motherhood sa ako friend) hehehehe so grabeh nga laughs ( i always do this stuff tripping lang) hahahaa. and at least I spend time sa lover sa akong friend which is naka argue naku way back... hehehehe but things are forgiven but i will never forget hahahahhaha sagdi nalang basta kay as far as i know we are good and they are good.. hehehhehehe again i end the day with a smile.... 3rd day is the best day, when we wake up in the morning from a cold dark night, the famliy decided to go somewhere for a "panata" its almost 2 hours trip from their place... as in sobrang adventure wheewww and the place was amazingly beautiful... We have our pictorial of course (check my friendster) hehehehehe as in the trip is soooooooo much fun.... as in!! grabeh over!! i really enjoy the trip especially nga among motorcycle driver is a racer so as in with all the off road drives, with me at the back!! wahahahahhahha when we got home i feel so tired and sunog wahahahah because heat irriatate my face and nasunog jud cya feeling naku.. wahahahaha naka tulog ko kadjut and later that day I had a chance to talk to my friends granny wahehehehe granny was sooooo coool also we laugh our heart to the highest level, I cant imagine I'm talking to her coz my friend told me that she's a drinker so feeling naku dili me magkasinabot but when we start talking i can't help myself but laugh with her ("lola you are cool")... the same day i need to go back to my world, the real world hahahahha but the experience was so much fun and if i will be given a chance to do it again and again isa lang sagot ko "TARA ADTO NATAH,DUGAYA OI!" though until now i am suffering sa akong ubo and sipon because of the experience but okey lang IT'S ALL WORTH IT! hehehehehhehe game pako sa sunod and next time i'll be more prepared hahahahahahhahha....

cheers!

~chang2x~

Thursday, March 26, 2009

baby sorry to say this but "I'm over you"

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Whoa it was a long waaaahh years i thought i can never appreciate the word "MOVE ON", hahahhaha. Opppsss sorry you don't know the whole story. Let's have a sneak preview of what happened.

I was running 18 then when i meet this guy actually we are "kababata" when we are kiddos pa pero we lost communication and we are not that close kasi we are opposite not with the fact nga his boy and i am girl pero we are opposite in a sense po na siya tahimik ako sobrang loud, siya behave ako naman sobrang pilya, basta as far as i know we seldom talk with this guy but one day in a barangay fiesta which the two of us spend our childhood memories ,we meet again i think it was 6-8 years ago the last time we saw each other. His tita is one of my mom closest friends so alam niyo nah no one can be a hindrance kung we become bf and gf thing you know nah. so to make the story short YES we commit with each other, and i will tell you that it was a happy relationship. I was graduating when both of us shared the one of a kind relationship (char watta description) yes no doubt about feeling coz we know we love each other so much. When i graduated in college andun po cya sa bahay tried to help my family for the small preparation and thanks giving, and it was one of the memorable days of my life. I already got a job before i graduated so i continue my life as a employee and again he was their supporting in every way that he can, one day (ito nah) he started to fall for me so deep,nah i think hindi dapat. I know there is nothing wrong in falling in love pero I am not into him, ahmmm let me say like this I'm in love with him pero not to the point that i will give up even my career because of him heller we are too young to get married that's what i always thought that time. So he left me with no choice but to let him go and make things right, he must know to live life without me because wala pa po ako sa level nah magmenyo naku ,got lots of plan sa akong life. So we broke up, that was one of the painful days of my life (naks!) and time runs so fast nga 2 years nah ang nilabay nga i never passed a day not thinking about him and last 2008 nagbalik me,i thought we can work things out but sad to say nga dili pa niya ma getch akong life, because I am too busy sa akong work, gina work out pa naku akong family and a lot of things is running in my mind. So again bagsak ming duha, it is painful pero at least mas okey ang break up. Days becomes months and months become year and a lot of time he always runs through my mind, but because of all the friends na naa ko, friends that will make me smile even in my worst and bad days. They help me, to make things right. They help me to realized that life is full of surprises, and yes it is folks. WHOA! and now? YES i am totally over him. hahhahahhaa I know dugay but its all worth it. whoa! for the past days we communicate and he admits nah he loves me pa pero sa karon I'm happy and over him. Dili man natoh mabal an ang panahon and im not closing the doors for him if mag balik me one day then fine let it be pero isa lang ako nabal an as for now nga I'm over him najud over as in kung magkita me then fine watever! hahaha thanks for that someone who allow me to open my eyes ... hahahahaha diri sa ko taman kay murag na busy na akong career.. to be continued readers.. wahahahha

Thursday, February 12, 2009

watta crazy world i got!

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my kuya is getting maried this coming february 14,2009... to near right?? but is it a nice idea nga ang lahi ang mugasto??? wer is the justice di bah???i really hate that fact nga wala igasto akong kuya.. sala ba diay naku nga wala cya plano sa iyang life??? i cant imagine myself being with this situation, stupid nah kaayo ilang ginabuhat.. can't they get it? mahal kaayo mag menyo and then nag decide mag menyo sa walay claro nga sitwasyon sa life.. wla man lang gamay nga nasave para sa ilang wedding.... unsaon mana karon... pastillan. nagtarong ko sa akong life, i go to school, listen sa advices ako teachers and even attend seminars for my good so that dili ko malihis sa landas unya karon the people around me are going crazy doing things in life nga ambot bah ug makaayo sa ilang life.. naulit jud ko promise. to the highest level. okey raman mutabang bah for as long estoryahon lang ko kung unsa problema, worth man pud guro ko ug explaination maski gamay.. pastillan man pud nah nga garbo sa iyang kinabuhi nga dili man jud magpabale sa iyang kaugalingon nga prinsipyo murag makakaya nah. Honest lang jud kuya huh dili tawon ni balay2x ang inyong kasudlan nga kung wla na kay kwarta muadto kang mama or magluya2x ka ug mag nga2x kay wala kay kaonon, nakarealized bah ka nga lissssssssssooooooooodddddddd kaaaaaayyyyoooooooo ang life.. maybe wala coz you never tried to go out sa saya ni mama. Hay naku ambot unsaon naku nga mapagawas ni akong kaulit basta naulit jud ko. dili man approriate for a younger sister to spend even her savings para sa lang sa wedding sa iyang kuya kay buros na ang babae, fair bana??? heller maski kinsa guro mubasa anih dili jud nah fair. Heller i got my own life here, and to think daghan pa kog plano sa life. so kung kamo wala mo plano then padayon mo kay ako daghan pa kaayo tawon. Mao na diha kung magkalisod lage makita atong imporatancya kung naa sa kalami sa iyang life walay nakita nga igsoon. Mahinumduman raman ko ninyo di bah kung naa mahospital, naa tambal paliton, wala na sulod inyong ref, wala mo bugas, ug naa bayran or magpalibre mo ug snack. Again wala man ko nangkwenta dri pero just for once naman allow me to part of the family, mangutana ko aha mo adtong time nga naglisod ko? aha mo adtong time ga nagsakit ko?? aha mo adtong time nga dili ko gaginhawa kay nag tukar akong sakit? asa mo adtong time nga gisapot ko sa trabaho and i just wanted someone to talk to?? AHA MO? We are so called family but honestly we are not.. I am such a loser writting things over here pero this is what i felt. Damn! pila na bah ko ka beses nga inani sa inyo. Naa ko sa layo, someone called me I thought mangumusta kung kamusta na bah ko kung okey lang bah akong biyahe.. pero wala nanawag kay "chang pwede ka padala ug kwarta?" "chang si kuwan na kuwan kailangan namo ug kwarta.... unsay tan aw ninyo sa ako 500 peso bill?? please lang naman, sa akong pagkaila sa akong self dili man ko inana ka laogan, inyo na tanan naku kwarta, pero please lang love me like a human. madumduman raman ko ug financially galisod mo. Kung time nga kamo lage naa kay wala lage ko ninyo nakita.Pero kung ako mag enjoy sa akong kwarta daghan estorya nga kesyo akong rah mga amiga akong ginapakaon, at least sa ila i feel that i belong coz they love me with all their heart.I know im too hard to loved by other people kay im numb pero kung kwarta nalang man inyong tan aw sa ako better nalang nga muambak kog tulay para daku inyo makuha sa kong insurance.Pag mature pud mo oi. Asenso inyong gusto?? niasenso tah dugay rah.. pero wala ninyo na appreciate kung unsa ang naa tah.Damn it! unsa bah gabuhaton ninyo BINGO, INOM, SUGAL, BISYO have you realized you are spending the asenso nga inyong gipangita??? KABLO BAH MO ANAH??? KABLO MO WALA?? kung pwede ko palang ni isinggit sa inyong atubangan ako nang gibuhat. WE ARE THE ONE MAKING OUR DESTINY so dapat mulihok. makawala mog gana tanan!!!!!kanus a man mo mga tiguwang dagku naman unta mog edad..hay pastillan jud lage... I travel from butuan to CDO around 3 hours after this post and still naa pa sa ako ang kaulit nga why do people got brains and they don't used it? hahay sorry im being rude again but please lang maluoy pud tawon mo sa ako. Do i deserve all this things?? can someone answer this damn question. kay murag ako naglibog nasad. hahay sorry multiply gi murder napud taka murag sobra naamn gud naulit jud ko... hahay

Saturday, February 7, 2009

wala lang.. mingaw naku sa imo...

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whoa! watta month as in mag 3 weeks na wala day off? work is hell... hahahaha pero i need to work kay wala ko kaonon kung dili ko magwork... hay kapoy kaayo projects are coming from here and there. I am emotionally, mentally and physically stress,pero wah choice eh i need to move forward. daghan ko reasons like family obligations, personal goals and i need to survive on my daily living. Kapoy magmature, you have to be strong enough to take all the consequences in life. Burdens are to heavy nah to carry pero cge lang tera tera. To be honest sometimes I do wanna be strong, I do wanna be courageous, I just wanna cry in the corner and feel the pain until i'll be used by it. Pero dili pwede eh I am other peoples strenght, someone who had enough to be their shield, their shining armor, their lucky charm(though not that lucky hahaha). My siblings is counting on me though kablo sila nga tulibagbag japun ko ug utok pero kablo sila nga pwede ko makatabang sa ila. Hahay pastillan, I wish I had a robot friend nga pwede naku siya hanggaton sumbagay if I wanted to punch noses kay gisapot ko hahahahahahah ug naa pud cya uban2x sa ako anytime i need someone to join me sa akong pagbaklay2x sa gabie kanang mag tripping ko... kanang robot friend nga mag uban naku ug tulog nga mapukaw rah naku kung magsakit akong chrostro hahahahha i wish i could buy this robot friend... at least kung robot dili niya ma feel akong emotion so dili cya makareact, cge lang cya game sa ako, dili kapoyon, dili magreklamo, and walay reasons why dili ko niya maubanan.. hahahahhaha bitaw pero impossible mani nga naa inani.. hmmmp palit nalang ko pet fish kanag gold para ma prenda.. what you think? hahahahahahha mabiyaan man naku kay ga travel man ko. hmmmpp?(thinking 24 hours...) aahhhh wala naman ko mahuna hunaan nga lingaw oi... any advice? hahhaaa bitaw diri lang ko taman. Gudnyt multiply see yah next time. I'll be away by next week naa travel nakaschedule soooo dugay taka ma visit.

cheers!

chang2x

Sunday, January 25, 2009

----new room? new life? new things? new me?---

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haaaayyyy nahuman naku ug layas sa akong daan nga room, yeah for sure i will miss that room i miss its smell, iyang kangit2x, iyang aroma,akong kabuang gibuhat didto (ako ra ug akong kiddos ang kablo)hahahahh, ug labaw sa tanan i miss my life being with those people i spent my time with.. too sad i need to moved but this decision must lead me to something. I know and it will.. hehehehehe... 2009 is a year with waaaaaaaaaaahhhhh days.. mixed na tanan.. great responsibilities, more work pressures, more pains to suffer, more experience to gain. wheewww! Honestly, I am kinda scared nah this time... scared for almost everything... too sad to admit pero basta fears are coming from here and there... haaaaayyy ambot bah as time goes murag action naman kog kabalaka.. not because im getting older, but because we people are living in a whole damn big world. Murag people are getting busy, about work, love, travel, life and dali rah kaayo gapanglabay ang panahon. hay may nephews are getting older(wala na koy ma baby..hehhehe), my friends, brothers and sisters are getting married( hahahaha im happy for them), my parents are getting old (at least sila pa japun)... life is a battle field man kunoh haaaaaaayyy if dili na kaya i know i will be shot straight sa akong heart... KAYA PEOPLE TERA!!!! though my heart is terribly wounded and broken I will assure you as long as blood continue to circulate sa akong mga veins then I dont have any choice but to live by it....

Thursday, January 8, 2009

just want to......... scream!!!!

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hehehhehhehehe writing my thoughts again.... hay naku watta year.... starting palang bang bang naman.. hay naku.. whats next??? maybe a happy trip to a place nga wala pa naku ma adtoan? a party with friends? a weeding to celebrate\?? unsa paman ang sunod?? waaaaaaaaaahhhh i do appreciate life pero im little bit paranoid nah...Its getting me to a scenario which i don't know if a can handle pa....waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ano bah!! please lang.. whoa!! hinay2x lang chong one at a time... whoa!!! usahay i wanted to be in the most solemn place nga ako mavisit kay murag whoa saba kaayo ang world. I really appreciate ang mga tao nga deaf and mute at least dili sila ka dunggog and silence lang always kauban nila... whoa! too young to handle everything pero whoa!! bahala na si batman... i will ride all the waves in the ocean kay daghan man gud fish manguha pako.. wahahahahahahha hay naku basta akong new year resolution, no matter how painful the situation is i will manage to smile, mao nah ako regalo sa akong self... whoa!! wahahahhhahahahahahhahahahaha..... bahala nah. tera! tera!tera!

Monday, December 22, 2008

grow old... be mature....

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wahahay... i never thought i would handle such responsibility.. ingon pa nila nagka dugay nagkalami man ang life.. that's why I'm afraid of commiting in a relationship dili ko ganahan ug resposibility coz sa karon palang nga wala koy partner daghan na kaayo ko responsilbility. This complicated life offers you almost everything, priceless laughter, countless blessings, memories to be cherished, never ending pains and heart breaking situations. Funny to think about it but its reality. I was so stunned by lifes surprises, pero cge lang this is my course my life (spider man)wahahahaha...Unsaon taman nga inana man jud ang life. Sagdi lang tibay nang loob lang man daw katapat anih! ajah! tera! tera!
hahahhahahahahhaa

Friday, December 19, 2008

ending this year with an exhausted heart

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hey yah!hey yah! hehehehhe 2009 is coming and I'm kinda excited nah. hehehehe yeah I'll be leaving 2008 with a exhausted heart... grabeh nga year oi.. as in puno sa tanan.. naay happy,sad,exciting,suprising ug uban pang mga scenarios nga i never thought will happen.
2009 will be a challengeing year.. start sa bag o ug higher nga responsiblity. Kinda excited ko for the said year pero naa japun ko fears pero its just a fear factor.. bahala nasi batman.. hehehehehe basta daghan ko plans ext year i hope nga akong mabuhat and isa na didto ang magbawas nang timbang huhuhuhuh it is advice by the doctor sooo kung gusto ko mabuhi pa mag sunod tah kang doc.. hehehehhehe hope achieved that goal. Gabawa naman ko timbang karon pero tungod sa stress which is dili maayo pud.. basta2x daghan ko plans and will keep you posted multiply.. hehehehehe

Thursday, December 18, 2008

tired as in

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grabeh kakapoy nga adlaw asssssssssss iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnn.... Honestly last night nag gurls night out me or should i say gala time and nag inom me hahay si aisa man gud ning nanghanggat.... soooo mga around 1 o clock nami nakauli..huhuh ug sa dihang its my habit nga kung maka inom ko early ko makamata so sayo kaayo ko nakamata...and sayo ko nag work, hahay and aaaaaaaaaaaaassssssssssssssssss iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnn daghan kaayo work daghan pajud kaayo ko dapat apason nga trabaho.hahay tapos na busy pajud para sa party this coming friday...as in jud ko kakapoy nah promise...
 

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