"Just when I thought that love could never be a part of me, that's when you came along and showed me happiness!"
That's the best quote I can described when this guy started communicating with me. He used to be my friend 10 years ago(but I guess we never stop being one). Honestly, I recently recover from a very traumatic love experience. My blog knows every thought that I wanted to say. I can't find the right words to explain how painful it is letting go of someone you used to love more than your life. But here I am standing still and brave enough to gain my life. And "yes" without hesitation I already recovered and redeem myself being in hell. And I extend my deepest appreciation to my Gohonzon for being my strength to carry on,to my friends who's been so patient and kind loving me always, my family for always motivating me to aim high, and my self for the courage to move on and keep going. That' was not easy, I know. But today I am giving my self a tap on my shoulder for a well done job (bravo!). The time I started to love my life again and started to build my dream on my own, he found me on the right time.We are too excited to communicate again and update each other of what had happened in 10 long years, when we choice to have our separate lives. We used to tease each other and laugh with our memories together ,wow! we've realized how much we've change since then.We never forgotten each other ( i thought he won't recognize me anymore), but it feels like it was yesterday that he still woke me up in bed just to used my gameboy for him to play. We can still remember how I used to let him cry because I throw the kiddy chair on his arm because I was pissed off by his jokes. We can still remember how his parents loves to see us together because it was I who let their son go to school and study ( I am her terror Girl friend that time), they know i can punch the nose of their son if he misses classes. We still smile every time we remember how he used to draw for me my favorite Ghost fighter character and how he used to be my Dennis with a red rose. He also draw me my huge tweety which I hang on the wall. We laugh our hearts out when we remember how we let other kids go out on our way when we are coming, we are inseparable by that time. But things change and we separate because his family choose to send him to a private secondary school, by then ,my ever beloved closed boy friend is not with me anymore. But 10 long years, and our path had crossed again, we never expected this time to come but here we are smiling again and making out of all the time we've been separated. He updates every detail of his life and I love updating him of what happened to mine. He never changed, he still cares for me, so do I. The friendship still never change and we both know that we love each other. But the feeling change! we are in deep confusion and madness, we just realized that love is visiting us again in a mature way.You all know how happy I am and how miserable I was when me and my recent ex-boyfriend accept love and end it so soon. It feels like, life took the happiness which I built for 22 years on earth.But romeo came and rescue juliet while she was away and started life on her own. Is this what they call destiny? Finding the right man at the right moment of your life.I spent almost 2 weeks with him but it was all worth it. Every minute is smile, very second is memory and every hour is complete fantasy. Today was the day he flew to KSA,Riyadh for work and honestly when its time for us to go our separate ways its too hard for me to say goodbye. He even ask me to just stay and he will be out to say his final words but he never got the chance to do it, thanks he never made it, for sure we will both cry. Seeing him away from me breaks my heart gently, damn it so hard. Today I make sure that things will act as normal, I do the same routine, feel busy at work, go out with a co-worker but I can't deny it I miss him already. When I log out and I stepped my foot on the elevator I remember him, it even made me realized that I'll be missing him since today.Mamiss ko lahat. I will his smile every time will tease each other,, i will miss his hair that I make sabunot when his stubborn, I will miss him and his lalaw pants, I will miss how he washed my clothes in weekend, i will miss his voice which wakes me up every morning, i will miss everything in him.We both wish that we can spend more time with each other, i hope one day we will. Maybe this is the way of how wendy(me) find her peter, same as romeo(him) already found his juliet. I will be seeing you soon, i hope things will never changed. You always told me that you love me and even i don't utter the words, but it shows that I LOVE YOU TOO. SEE yah! I will be waiting, just dont make it too long (o_x).
