The ring part 2

It took me long time and enough guts to give this ring sa ila. Every time I have time to think about them I always ask myself unsaon naku ug bawi sa oras nga wala ko sa ilang side. I admit, I am always busy or should I say I always keep myself busy, and how much more this time nga i'll be leaving the place (CDO). I am attending my personal dilemmas right now, and I can't even tell them how am I badly hurt. I can't find the words, thats why I pretend so they won't worry. Things will change since I will give this ring to them, this well be the day that I decided to continue life with a very heavy heart. This ring will help me to at least remind myself that I have reasons to live and I will not loss hope and i will hold on into them. Dili lage ko magpakamatay promise! hahahahahaha

mix_moh

Wheeww!!! the collage making contest in Albay is a success. I was too happy nga early morning palang I recieved a call coming from papart telling me nga ni champion ang among school for Albay competition. My mentor momy lacson talked to me and told me nga "anak we won", I am proud and happy that they made it on top. hehehehe Though gamay rajud nga time akong nahatag para mag paint atoh akong draft for the collage but it was all worth it... hehehehe mix idea cya with my artist friend pero same school me- he is the artist of the year for 2005, & ako ang artist of the year for 2004. hehehehehehe happy kaayo ko...

A good friend of mine is in deep pain. He texted me and ingon cya nga his really in trouble. Sa iyang pagka buang ang pagka kalo2x as in cya pa ang naay daku kaayo nga problema sa kinabuhi. He 1st visited me at home with teary eyed, pinkish cheek saying "chang wala na ko kasabot, si mama nag sugod na. Nabuang napud akong mama". I really can't find the guts kung unsaon naku ang situation, I just really listened and less talk. Eventually na kalma cya and he leave, but with my assurance nga naa ra ko if he needed someone to talked too. Later he teexted me if I can visit him at home, he needed me badly. With the help of my other friend, i visted him at home and try to talked and at least bond with his family. Their was a time nga naka estorya me 3 nga kami lang. He really break down and cry. I can feel his pain but unsaon naku nga matabangan naku cya. I really dont know what to do and where to start everything. I let tears roll down on his face and let him feel the pain. Lisod kaayo mabutang sa inato nga sitwasyon sa kinabuhi. hahay...

I really cant imagine sa akong smile nga nakuha nanih naku nga jersey. Gawas sa naa niy sentimental value as in, I've visited hell just to get this. As in it took me 1 year to retrieved this shirt as in!!! but chadang! naa nah cya sa ako again. Hay grabeh jud naku nga ngisi when I get this maski basa pa tawon kay gilabhan sa akong friend ako najud gikuha kay dili na naku makaya nga mawala pa ang jersey sa akong mga kamot kay dugay ko nanih gipangita nga jersey. But sad to admit wala na ang naghatag pero at least akong mabuhat nga akong gi estorya nga "kuwaon jud nih naku nga jersey" hahay salamat ako jud nabuhat abi naku ug dili naku mabuhat akong gi estorya... :D Hellu my jersey again. Welcome to my life pero you'll be part sa akong box sa memorabilia huh kay murag naa ko sa recovery stage as for now... pero happy ko nga nabalik naka sa akong life... hehehehehe

Its a sad day coz wake sa mama ako batchmate but honestly dili cya inana ka sad coz nahimo namong bonding moment with my batchmate sa highschool. I really enjoy the road trip namo when its time nga mamauli nah. We are four motorcycle nga ga parade sa dalan ug nag hinatora sa isig balay namo. lols. I also enjoy the long talks sa akong mga old friends with all the sharing2x of everthing. We just realized nga mga tiguwang nami. Ang topic as in menyo2x and work. Pero the happy part is when sila akong kauban dili ko tiguwang, we always felt nga we are still the high school student of bayabas national high school... Joey (botiktoy), joey(papa joey), maac( joel acma), kuya litoy, mark,popong,ric2x,jesset, mommy lacson,gigi and me enjoyed the laugh trips nga naa me.. wheeewww! by Feb 15 daw bonding moments napud namo... ang saya naman nito... I will surely miss this when I'll go to manila....

10 Ways to Get Through a Breakup Without Breaking

1) While moving on is important in time, letting yourself really feel all you’re feeling now is just as important. As we’ve said, guys can often feel pressures to be more stiff-upper-lippy than girls, or to pretend like a breakup doesn’t bother you. But most people, of all genders, even when a breakup is wanted, have feelings of sadness, anger, insecurity or disappointment about a breakup. It’s up to you who you share your feelings with, but make sure you’re at least giving yourself time and space alone to just experience those feelings and let them have their own flow.

2) Express yourself. Expressing how we feel is part of dealing with how we feel and moving forward. Any of us can use creative ways to express our feelings, such as through journaling, a creative art like photography or music, through physical activities, what have you. You know you best, and know your best places to let it all out: use them.

3) Plenty of us, after a breakup, may pine or obsess over a lost partner with photographs or mementos of the relationship. But at a certain point – depending on how you’re doing, and if you feel like those things are doing you good or not – it’s time to put that stuff away. You don’t have to ritually destroy them (and may regret it later if you do), but putting them all in a box, and then somewhere well out of sight, can help a lot.

4) Reclaim the things you enjoy and had less time for during your relationship. Obviously, the more relationships we have, the less time we usually have for ourselves, and intimate relationships can take up a lot of time and energy. Doing the things we love and have previously had less time for helps heal our hearts and also remind us of who we are, by ourselves, not just who we are in a relationship.

5) Find some solid support. For sure, not all of your friends may have the emotional maturity or life experience to understand how you’re feeling. Some may even be really bad choices to share with: a person who teases you about being sad, or who just disses your ex endlessly isn’t likely to be a good support. But do reach out to people you think may be supportive. That might be a teacher or a coach, one of your parents or a sibling, or a friend of any gender. If you’re having a supremely tough time with a breakup, finding a counselor to help you through it can also be a good step, whether that’s the counselor at school or a counseling professional through your healthcare services. And if you feel like you’ve got none of these resources, you can seek out some safe spaces online to be real with how you feel, like our message boards.

6) Deal with your breakup in ways which are emotionally healthy for you and your ex. It’s common to feel angry or bitter after a breakup, but some people act on those feelings in ways that aren’t healthy, and which range from masochistic to downright dangerous. To be clear, ceasing to do all the things you enjoy doing, or which you need to do – going to school or work, eating, sleeping, bathing -- is not healthy. Self-harm through things like cutting, drinking or doing drugs, high-risk sexual behavior or suicide attempts are not healthy. Refusing to give your ex space and time – such as by texting or emailing them over and over again – or allowing an ex to refuse to give you space and time is not healthy. Hopefully it’s obvious, but blackmailing, manipulating, stalking, harassing, or physically or sexually attacking an ex in any way are not only unhealthy, but abusive and criminal.

7) If you and/or an ex want to try and sustain a platonic friendship, be sure you both are giving yourself some space and time first, and also set and maintain healthy boundaries. As well, check in with your or their motivations for a friendship: often enough, some people want to “stay friends” not to actually be friends, but because they are either having a tough time letting go, or because they hope a friendship may help get the romantic relationship back. The same goes double for breaking up, then walking right back into a friends-with-benefits scenario. If neither person has had time to deal with the breakup, you can be very sure that someone is going to get hurt and feel very confused by casual sex – though sex with a recent ex is hardly casual – when a relationship is supposed to be over.

8) Try and avoid rebounding by giving yourself time to be single after a relationship. Sure, now and then we rebound anyway, or a new relationship just happens. Sometimes, a new relationship may even be why the old one ended. But most of us need some time to grieve and reflect after a breakup: if we don’t have time to feel our feelings, as well as time to learn the lessons of our last relationships and the breakup, our next one might not be any better than the last. Too, after a breakup, we so often feel so lonely, having been used to having a partner, that relationship choices made hot on the heels of a breakup don’t tend to be our best.

9) Remember that a breakup is not likely about how much you suck, or how unwanted or undesirable you are. When relationships don’t work, it’s rarely about one person, which shouldn’t be surprising since relationships are necessarily about more than one person. Rather, relationships that end, fall apart or just don’t work tend to be about how any two people find that their personalities, lifestyles, goals, communication styles, and any number or kind of needs and wants don’t mesh or play nicely together. As well, breakups are even more common or frequent with younger people than with older folks because younger people are still growing and changing so much that a partnership that feels perfect one month can feel like a poor fit the next. Even the most awesome people in the world cannot have a great love relationship with just anyone: we can be as great as we want to be, but that doesn’t mean we’ll be great together with everyone. It’s helpful to try not to look at breakups as failures, even though it can sure feel that way. Moving on or away from something that isn’t working for one or both people isn’t a failure, it’s a movement towards both learning and finding what does work for them.

10) … and when it’s time, be open to other relationships again. It can be so easy, especially when a relationship is over, to only remember the good stuff or for our good times to seem even better than they actually were. If you’re getting over one of our first loves, it might feel like you’ll never have those feelings again, or never have them so hugely. You might also feel scared to try getting involved intimately again. All of those feelings are normal, but chances are, you will likely have those feelings again, and while we always risk hurt or heartbreak when we get close to others, those are the risks we take to have the good stuff. A broken heart can hurt like hell, to be sure, but broken hearts do heal in time.

The Ring...

Ako ning gipalit nga ring the day I knew wala najud chance ang tanan. The day I break down and cry. Honestly I am wearing it on the left hand where dapat ang wedding and engagement ring mabutang. Why inani akong gibuhat? coz since the day I am using it I told myself nga from that day I will engage myself to life again. No more worries, no more pains, no more hurt feelings, no more heartbreaks. Dili man sa ingon nga dili najud nih naku agian ang tanan pero I will try to live life like nothing happens. I will love life like I never suffered pain. I will indulge myself like it is my last and I will welcome surprises like a daily miracle. And one day I will love once more like it is forever. I will just simply live life like everyday is my last.AKo nalang eenjoy ang tanan kaysa naman mag worry ko always sa akong daily nga circumstances. Though I thought of it as lisod but with all the help of my dear friends and family gakaya baya naku ang tanan. So since now until I saw the man who will live life with me forever I will try to treasure this ring para sa akong commitment sa akong life. Bahala muingon ang mga tao nga engage ko or whatever. bahala nah.... heheheheheeh problema nanah ninyo people... heheheheh basta I love life and I will love this ring... hehehehehe

I will give my best....promise!

It was January 17,2010 that taweng invited me para daw mahimong panauhing pandanggal sa ilang thanks giving for Sto.Nino. si taweng ang amigo nga lisod kaayo balibaran, so i said yes sa ilang invitation. I was surpised nga kids from a very low class family ang naa, I really observed everything. Ang uban gisi ang sinena, and uban buslot ang shorts, ang uban nagka pita2x ang tiil ug nawong. kung imo jud tan awon they are the less fortunate once. I am touched about sa situation nila. Napamata ko nga naa pay mga tao nga lisod pa sa tanang lisod. Nagsugod na ilang thanks giving and naa ko didto financially nag support maski gamay. Nalingaw kaayo ko watching the kids nga magsige jud ug smile everytime makadaug maski wala tawon sakto nga prices. Pero the experienced is good, nakarealized ko nga daghan pa ko pwede buhaton sa akong life. Daghan pa ko pwede tabanggan. Though sa una naka attend naku ug inani nga events but karon nga mas mature naku mas gaka feel na naku ang ilang panginanhanglan sa kinabuhi. I am lucky enough nga makatabang ko sa lain tao. And from this moment on ibalik na naku ang ginabuhat sa akong family sa una. At least once a year nga thanks giving for the less fortunate. Dili ko mag promise pero I will surely give my best...