decide now or now nah talaga....

Once in your life have you been into a situation were you need to decide on something that you don't want to think at this moment of time??? ohhh! anyway maybe yes, maybe no... Let's rephrase the question, Is marriage a huge decision??? Considering my age at 22 is it too early to decide for this matter?? Honestly I got lots of plan for my life and it really drives me crazy thinking about this topic. Morning today I visited my doctor and have my check-up and clearance. My doctor is happy about my recovery, She even told me I look good and doing good. Its been an open book that a month ago I undergo a surgical operation because of ovarian cyst. When my doctor and I talked she again asked me even beg me to get married as early as possible, she honestly told me about the risk I have right now. She's giving me and my BF a short time to things over- about a month( I must undergo vaccine & pap smear test), as in 30 days. She even told me she can't recommend me to take pills or anything that could lead me not to bear a child. According to her it is ASAP as (AS SOON AS POSSIBLE)... After the test I must bear a child sooner not later...waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh....Is my BF ready for all the responsibilities?? Am I ready to be a mother?? Do I have capability to raise a child?? Actually it freaks me out thinking all of this, it is too early? But do I have a choice?? It really scares me to death but this is reality *gaga mode*...

I really don't know what to do.... Things puff up on my mind, kesyo bulagan nalang naku akong BF kaysa naman ma pressure siya ug lakip and I don't want him to be with me because I'm sick (HELL NO!).I know bothered pud siya karon nga time because of me... I want him and I want myself to think things over...Maybe month of break-up?-maybe this time we can have enough time to think. waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh IT REALLY DRIVES ME CRAZY!!! 911 RESCUE ME!!!

Call it a day Chang.....

It's too hard saying goodbye to someone sospecial.
While I'm doing this video my heart
is tearing apart. It was so painful that she will
be away from me... A person I considered a friend,
A friend I considered a sister, A sister I considered perfect!
When she slept with me last night I can still remember how
she hugs my hand so tight while I pretend sleeping and it hurts me so bad
We both know I close we are, and I don't know how to say farewell...
We will miss each other... that's for sure and she promise she will cry
If it hurts to much.I really don't know this will hurt me this much...
Why now? when I know I needed her badly...
I hope everything will fall into the right place
I know I'll recover with this pain...
Maybe not now, But I know someday..

Waiting For Someone Like You

Waiting For Someone Like You lyrics

After all the rain, and after all the pain
A brand new day is here for me to start
Your light feeds my soul it's shining in my heart
A brand new day is here for us to start


You and me together it's gonna be a harmony
You and me forever will always be a symphony
The lines says it all,
after all the relationship I have
Its time for me to start a new day with him
His the best melody I have right now

Refrain:
I've been waiting, waiting for so long
I've been longing, I've been hoping for you to come along
I finally found my song and it's you
I've been searching, I've been waiting for someone like you

I've been waiting for him to come along
I've search, I patiently wait
And now its over
I'm with him And his with me...

Many times I've failed fallen almost every time
You held my hand and dried my tears in my eyes
And everyday that passed were spent waiting for you
You saved this heart of mine with a love so true
Thoughts of us together brightens up my darkest days
Without your love I'm lost I couldn't find my way

I'm lost for quit sometime
I even scream for all the lonely nights
But time has already come
I'm yours, your mine

Bridge:
So hard to hope and wait for love
But I'd go through it all again
If I knew that it was you

If I'll fall in love again and again
It will be with him
Coz I've already fallin' a thousand times
And with the same man....it's him

Refrain:
I've been waiting, waiting for so long
I've been longing, I've been hoping for you to come along
I finally found my song and it's you
I've been searching, I've been waiting for someone like you

I've been waiting for so long
But its him all alone
The hand I always want to hold
And the love I don't want to let go
The man I dream at night...
The man I always fell in love with

It strikes me thousand times

If its me against her, who am I to fight back...
If she will be the one I am fighting with, I will surely lost the game
If she will be the person who will shut me with a gun on hand, I let myself die
If she will be the women who'll crashed me, I will allow everything to happen
dumped me! crashed me! betray me!knocked me down! criticize me!... Do whatever you want
If that could make you happy, I'll be the most coward girl if you are my opponent.
hurt me! judge me! hate me... If that could satisfy you...If that can give you new lease of life...
You want to ask me whose the women behind all this??? MY MOTHER....
A person whom I thought could take all my pains away
A person whom I consider my shining armor
A person whom I expect to support me in everything I do
A person whom I thought would love me the way I am
A person who curse me!
A person who abandoned me!
A person who told me she regret I was given life in this world
A person I thought the best
A person I thought for real
A person I can't deny
She's my mom, my mother ,my mama. A women every people expected to be loving, caring and willing to give everything for a child. I know she's not perfect, so do I...But if this is life can offer, with all my hearts I will take it as a reward. Gamay ra me naa anih nga situation and envy those people nga wala miagi anih. It hurts, a lot actually... Not even a bucket of tears could help me ease the pain . Not a single comedy movie could let me forget everything she said, not even a truck of ice cream can relieved me with pain. But mom I am not that strong, you know it in the first place (mom's knows best right?), but I will tell you "I will get used to it!".

Whatever it takes I'll pray for your happiness...

from
A lost daughter...

where's the good in goodbye

Pearl- "aloe" and I-"chang" are good friends sa ka close we have our friendship day and it is nov.8,2002. So if I'll count the years mag 7 years nami amiga...7 long years nga we shared life. For 7 years daghan na kaayo me ug gi agian. I cried when i know she's hurt, she always make me smile when I have my worst and bad days, she always encourage me when giving up is only my choice and its all worth a day when I am with her. She's a friend, a sister and a confidante of mine. Pearl and I share our every dreams and goals in life, we even laugh of all the unreachable aspirations we have but we keep each other believed that we can make it. Last Sept.2,2009 she visited me at home and gave me the pasalubong from manila- she was in manila for 2 weeks for some paper works. She told me everything and keep me posted about her life(though we seldom see each other we always make sure we keep each other posted). Part of her updates was a news, part of it is good but theirs always a bad side of everything. She told me she already passed the interview as immigrant in Boston USA. I was soooo glad she made it, I knew in the first place that it is her dream to be in BOSTON and help her family, but other side of me is sad because i'll be missing her when she leaves. Though I am very much happy for her I always keep thinking when will be the days we can spend our days together. Maybe this time i really need to accept the fact that life change, and we must moved on. Haaayyy tiguwang na jud diay me anih we need to face the hardship of life. We can't hang around same before, we can't telebabad on phone all night,text all night and we can't have our long chit chats . pero okey lang as long pearl is in my heart kaya na guro. We have our promise naman nah we will keep in touch... I'll be missing her for sure but this is what we want in our lives I must support her in every way that I can. I just want to assure her that even we are miles apart I'll keep her always as part of my identity I can never be who I am without an "ALOE" by my side... I really don't know where's the good in goodbye but I appreciate this goodbye coz it is not forever. I will see you soon pearl. I'll be waiting or should I say " see you in barcelona"- hahahahahah my dream place...

love you always and keep safe always...

I'll tell you who my friends are!

"Our most difficult task as a friend is to offer understanding when we don't understand. "

The are my gem that I'll be keeping forever.. One by one I will give you information of who they are and what they do to make me whole....

PEARL & CHANG (peacha! sounds like pecha!pecha!)
I really can't imagine how the two of us became friends, basta alam ko she was my high school bud tapos di namin alam we spend time together nah,we laugh together, we cry together, we sing together and we fight together. A friend I considered a sister, a lot of people know how we rock the world with our tandem. When we are in each others side we always felt that we owned the world.. hahahaha. But honestly I really appreciate pearl kasi alam niya when I got problems and she knows how to make me calm. She knows when to tap my shoulders when I needed it most. She knows how to cheer me up even if it's a worst day. She cries with me when I can't get rid of the pain and she smiles with me when she knows I am happy. Though for all the years had past we change and the long talks is over, we really keep each other as part of our success and we promise to keep the friendship for life.
"PEARL IS PROBABLY ONE OF THE BEST..."


CHANG & JV

aahhh si JV the crying baby.. hehheehehe she's one the soft spoken friend I have. Her simplicity really drive guys crazy hahahahha.. JV is a girl with good heart she always kill me with that, once I've done something wrong she will never make arguements with me but instead she'll kill me with her kindness(didto dayon ko niya mapilde.. hehehehe)... When she see me that life is not on my side and world is too heavy to carry, she keep silent lang-ssshh and I hate her of doing that because I know her words can make me feel better, pero honestly I know she cares and she love me so much maybe she really don't know how to approach me...What I like most about her is she got a humble and patient heart- she taught how to be like hers (maski gamay)... wahahhahaha(ambisyon)... She's one of my textmate,chatmate,plurk buddy, ka friendster, kaberks,katropa and lahat nang kakahan sa buhay.. hahahhahaha..
"JV IS MY BEST COMRADE"

AISA & CHANG
AISA??? shocks!! the person who rocks my world.... as in!!! grabeh nah nga bata bai if you really want someone who can let you smile to the highest level make her one of your friends( I'm lucky nakauna ko sa inyo)... She's a loud,funny and crazy brat girl you'll ever meet in this crowded world...Puro lang kabuang, kabalbalan, kalokohan, kagagahan and kakulitan ang gakabal-an niya. But naa japun ni cya serious side sometimes i can't fathom how profound she is.. We are both geminis busa magkasinabot ming duha. Game sa tanan namong laag ug tanan namong kabuang. She's the only girl that can makes us laugh our heart out for her undying jokes...basta to sum her up..
"SHE'S MY FUNNY CRONY AISA"



RUTTY& CHANG
My ever beloved rutty... She's probably one of the maarte's kabarka I got, hindi naman masyado maarte pero she's soo feminine. But rutty is the sweetest... usahay lang OA nah hahahaha (peace rut). I really appreciate her effort eveytime we need her most. As in limtan nah niya iyang sked just to be on your side or you need a helping hand. I really admire how thoughtful she is and how she handles a good heart. Si rutty ang klase nah friend nga isang text kalang andyan nah siya. She really don't know how she makes me feel so relieved when she slept with me when I'm at home suffering from pain-thanks rut for being with me.. mwahugs...
"SHE'S MY SOLICITOUS RUTTY"


AILYN & CHANG
AILYN HAGUTIN a pal I always call up anytime of the day. Game ni maski pa alas tres sa kadlawon just to be with you. A very open minded girl with so much fun to be with. Maghubog2x kami mag uban anih, mag videoke kami ra duha, magkaon ug balot, mag star mart,mag red horse hahahahaha.... ailyn is a mature thinker girlalo, she knows how to respond with your doubts and fears. Sensitive,thoughful,caring and loving girl thats why her baby is crazy inlove with her.. hahahahahha
"AILYN THE BEST ALLY"




JOJO & CHANG
Jozefy is my roomate way back. Later we became friends tapos ayon naging close friends nah, shes one of the putot freinds i have- peace jo, though she's small but she's really terrible. Jojo is a moody gurl sooo moody kaya nga we really don't hang around kasi medyo lukarit utak nang babaeng ito but even though ganun utak niya I still consider her as one of the best.
"SHE'S MY CERTIFIED BACKER"



HIGH SCHOOL FRIENDS

My high school buddies, I can't name them one by one pero they are my pain relievers. Though seldom ang bonding together but they are treausred as precious diamonds. Old friends but never gone wasted. Ingon pa sa akong isa ka barkada, "minsan man ang sama2x basta completo ang barkada masaya ang resulta". I really appreciate the friendship I've shared sa mga old friends ko, though we seldom see each other pero I know I can always count on them.
"MY amīcus"

The Scar

Hey yah

I miss talking to you... it’s been a while and I never had a nerve of giving you updates of what’s happening in my life. It was three months ago that I was overwhelm with life and I thought that the feeling will never end. 3 months of memories I wish to do it over and over again. 3 months of laughter that until now I smile every time I reminisce. 3 months of happiness that I thought would last forever. But life never gives all you want but instead Life offers you everything. It was August 10, 2009 at 6:30 in the morning that I suffer abdominal pain;at first I thought it was just a simple and tolerable pain. I observed how my body responds with the pain and around 7:00pm I decided to go to the hospital. I walked to my mom’s house to ask her to assist me in my check up and she doesn’t hesitate to join me. To make the story short, I undergo 2 ultra sound in my abdomen at it was diagnosed I got “OVARIAN CYST”. It is 7.4 cm and need to be removed in my ovary. I have a brief discussion with my doctor she told me everything will be alright, later by that day I was scheduled at 6:30 pm for a surgical operation. I was surprise about my condition and I am in mixed emotion on the scenario that even in dreams I never thought would happen. I inform my close friends about my condition for me to have enough courage for the said surgical operation (they always makes me feel better). One by one they come over in the OBY-WARD where I am waiting for my medical team to fetch me up for my operation. My friends let me feel that I need to be back coz they will wait for my return. Their smile is enough to strengthen me to overcome the operation.

It was 6:30 that I am in my laboratory gown and sitting in wheelchair going to the operating room. Last words I heard from my precious friends is “kaya na nimo chang” enough to assure me that I can make it. When a nurse greeted me with smile and tried to put the head dress, I told myself then “I am all alone, & I will fight alone”. Nurses ask me to lie down on bed and another nurse asks me with different questions as part of the procedure. I saw every medical equipment that they will used for the operation and I felt very nervous but instead of showing the real emotion I have, I show them how tough I am even deep within me I wanted to run away and never come back. By then, it is in doctor’s hand my life is being entrusted. When the anesthesia is being injected to me I fell asleep. It was 9:30 that the nurse woke me up and told me the surgical operation is done and it is successful. I felt relieved by that time. Even everything in my body is numb. But the nurse told me go back to sleep if I want too and passionately I obeyed. It was 10:00 when I woke up again and I can move half of my body, by then they decided to transfer me on my room for my recovery. When I was transferred in my room I saw my friends and brother together with his wife waiting for my return. As the anesthesia subsides little by little I felt the pain and even I tried not to cry can’t hide the pain. I keep crying all night and my BF keep wiping the tears in my eyes. As long as I wanted too I don’t want my love-ones seeing me in pain I know it hurts them too. That first night is the most painful night of my life (Physically)- I can’t eat, I can’t drink ,I can’t even scream coz it will give me pain and I can’t even move coz it will really hurt me that much. My friends are wide awake by that time coz every time I open my eyes they are their asking what I want. I was too worried about them for not having enough sleep because of me.

2^nd day till the 5^th day is good, I tried everything to stand up and walk. I want to recover as fast as I can so that I won’t be a burden to anybody. 5^th day is disappointing, I need to contact all my friends to help me discharge from the hospital. My family doesn’t give DAMN helping me financially. Again I was too thankful of all the friends I have for the support and help they gave me, at exactly 3:00pm I am out of the hospital. With all the suffering I encounter I know I will be mature enough to continue life. When I am at home I always kept telling myself that I am a warrior willing to face the battle again. I will start life again and I will treasure the people whom hold my hand when I really wanted to give up. When my doctor told me that I must bear a child as soon as possible because of the weak fallopian tube and left ovary I got, I cried over with the said truth asking myself,” why and why me? “Of all the people on earth am I brave enough to accept this fact? Facing reality is too hard but life left me with no choice but to accept that there’ s a reason behind all this circumstances. “Life never ends with a scar in my tummy but it's a proof that a warrior will rise and conquer”- no such illness can overcome me.

The man I fell inlove with

1st boy i fell in love with. It was 16th of February 2004 5:45 pm when I told him I am in love with him. His the 1st guy na nakapag pa "oo" sa tigasing babaeng tulad ko, I really can't imagine how he did it pero didto ko nagluya sa iyang eagerness to win me. He was my 1st love and I will never forget him. I was so lucky his the first man I offer my heart with though bata pa kaayo me that time. I can still remember the sundo in the dawn coz dili ko magpasabay sa hapon coz kami jud mag uban ni pearl-watta childish act.. hahahahah I can still remember the salute of his MP's kung mulabay naku-kilig mode, and take note naa pa ang iyang 1st letter sa ako nga mag cge kog katawa kung akong mabasa.lols.. Our relationship last for about 5 months- 2 months officially on, 3 months call off. Sad part of the relationship is that we are both young at hearts ,we really don't know how to handle such things and we have lots of things to know. So one day we broke up though I love him that much(puppy love) pero i really need to let him go, for us to grow and be mature. The break-up is painful coz i know dili niya gusto but I was to eager to prioritized my study (skolar ko noh ko that time) and i think dili naku ma handle both studies and him at the same time, but we agree nga atimanon niya iyang life same with mine. 2 years ko ayha naka recover sa iya. 2 long years waiting kung unsa iyang buhaton to settle iyang life but nothing happened.I lost hoped and learned to let him go.

The 2ND guy i fell in love with March 28,2006 @12:00 am I commit my heart with him. 2 years is enough to gain my heart back which the 1st guy took it away. With him is a fairy tale a dream I wish i will never woke up. He let me feel that loving someone like me is gift, a gift he will keep for the rest of his life. He tried almost everything just to keep the relationship work, 1 month that we are officially on, a month that he assure me that I am the only girl he loves, a month of hug that I keep missing everyday, a month of love that even myself wonder if I deserve his love. It is just a month but it took me 2 years to suffer the pain, in 2 years I keep missing him, 2 years his running through my mind,2 years I keep saving the pieces of my heart which puzzled me how to make it whole again. And in some time in 2 years we tried to work things out but we both failed with our desire and it is painful like hell(waaaahh)...But "Baby" 2 years is enough to start my life again.

5Th day of May 2009 9:45 pm @ cyvilnet cafe my heart recovered and willing to take the chances with him. Honestly his not my ideal guy, I never imagine spending my life with him. But having him in my life now is a blessing that would take a lifetime to thank for. When he holds my hand, he make me feel that theirs no letting go, when he hugs me... it assures me that having him is worthwhile, when he kiss me goodbye... he let me feel that he will be thinking of me all the time we're apart, when he smile every time we argue... I can't help myself but forgive him with all his faults, and the very truth i know when I'm with him is that "Loving him is too easy and I don't know if I can let him go". We are enjoying every detail of our relationship and on process to make it forever(I hope so) , though I really don't know if what tomorrow will offer, but as for now "myles" is enough to enjoy life and enjoy the real life fairy tale with him. This time... theirs no waking up because reality is better than a dream.

All of them are part of my life, they will keep reminding me that life is full of surprises. When your heart is broken you'll learn to fixed it again and live once more. Someone will come and help you regain everything you've lost but the man who makes you whole is the same man who'll break you once more. But learn and love again... bring back what you've lost coz loving is not losing, but loving is learning. Love and love again until you'll know his the real man for you.Take chances and take risk this is life and we must learn to deal with it...

4 days vacation... worth it!!! i could not ask for more

"I would maintain that thanks are the highest form of thought; and that gratitude is happiness doubled by wonder."

yeah! wheewww watta vacation and birthday nga naa ko this year.. 22 years but i was never been happy like this for my entire life... hahahahhaha let me tell you the detailed story for the 4 days vacation...

1st day may 28,2009- midnight palang my smile is abot hanggang tinga nah coz my close friend pearl nag count down sa akong birthday .. hahahahha she really makes me laugh adto nga time she's such a sweet friend, and i do really treasure that friendship with her. when i wake up early in the morning i cant help myself smiling kay grabeh nga greetings coming from special guys and gals who is part of my box office life...hahahaha later on my bday myles(my bf) told me nga dili cya makajoin sa akong bday celebration coz 15 hours cya mag duty next day... kinda sad coz it is a special day of mine tapos wala cya... but i dont want to ruin the day because of that news so ako giset akong mind nga mag enjoy japun ko.. my gays(girls jud na sila) friends will der so kablo ko nga i will enjoy the night. 7 pm is the assembly time but before that i visited my mama( i called her mama lang pero aunt naku cya) in greenhills it was such a nice feeling to reminisce the memories when she's with us. and I keep missing her. Pero life must move on, dili pud guro cya gusto nga i'll be miserable kay wala na cya.. its 10 long years but still i can remember the pain, but that pain give me smiles when i can remember how loving her heart is. I miss you mama and i will keep missing you ...I spend almost 1 hour and half sitting and talking to her, i cant help myself.. i always shed tears when i'm with her but still i assure her im okey... so much for that, its party time!! 7:30 i arrived at the venue.. kinda late pero okey lang.. pearl give me smile when i arrived at loretos she gave me a fila slippers which i really like. other gays friends with der lovers arrived and the party started... we sing a lot of songs and played billiards all night and it was fun, and it was a surprised that my myles(bf) surprised me with the flowers and a kiss , i was speechless for a couple of seconds but nakarecover ra ko, he just kiss me and then everything was fine.And honestly that made my bday complete. Later that night i am too busy opening the gifts from my close friends. jojo gave me a terno nga pangtulog and i really like it as in, ailyn gave me a pants nga pang dula badminton and swear nice ayo cya kay sakto kaayo sa ako, a pillow named meg ang hatag ni jv sa ako, dili najud ko hulam pillow sa iya sa ofice kung matulog ko sa hapon , a brown shoulder bag with price tag ang hatag ni aisa.. wala ning bataa nih, a nice and cute blanket naman ang hatag nih ating.... hahaahaha so i end up the day with a big smile and memories which i will treasure for life.. wahehehhehehhehehe its a long day but it was fun.. i swear!!! salamat sa inyong tanan!!!
2nd day may 29,2009- sabog gikan sa night nga bilar.. hahahaha i just visited my family at home, nakig dula ako mga pamangkins and later sa evening my highschool buddies visited me at home and it was fun spending memories with my old friends. whetwhew taweng is such a funny guy he always rock our world.again it was a happy day..

3rd day may 30,2009- happy bday aisa!!! yeah yeah yeah!!! mowing palang busy ayo me nag grocery for a family day pagkasunday late celebration napud sa akong bday. after lunch i txted jv nga magkita me kay ako hatod akong gift kang aisa but to make the story short wala madayon kay daghan daw cya lakaw and nabadtrip ko... hahahahhaha
but because na badtrip ko niadto ko kang flor kauban naku nga buddhist and nag chikka me until hapon hahahahhaha grabeh nga katawa namo as in... and adto nalang dayon ko kang aisa para personally hatag akong gift with cindy nga ako pud friend way back in high school. So the night of aisa has come and same place loretos among venue... rain is pouring so hard that time and nagpadungang pa akong pus on nga skit pud pero the party must go on.. hehehehe at sometime sa among pag uban walay conversation sa amo ni JV and I'm not used to it, so eventually ako siya duolan and i apologized for what had happen na carried away lang ko and both sides are forgiven already.. hehehehehe and we continue the party..hahhahaah it was fun and we enjoy the night as in. .another year for aisa to cherished and treasure.
4th day may 31,2009- wheeewww family day and late celebration sa akong bday with my family and friends as in lingaw kaayo ang day completo akong mga igsoon except for abby(nasa LA) and cory(missing) nga wala ka join.. may pamangkin enjoyed the pool as in nahaponan gud ug kaligo... wheeeeewwwww myles also got the chance to spend moments with my family and officially accepted na cya.. hehheehe i keep loving him na hinuon everyday.. hahahahahha later this day i realized that I COULD NOT ASK FOR MORE... if my life would end ugma dayon it is all worth it!! grabeh na kaayo ko ka enjoy... unsa pa akong pangitaon i got family( though its not perfect), got lovings friends, naa koy career, naa koy myles... unsa pa akong pwede pangayoon di bah?? i was so lucky i have them in my life... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh now tell me its all worth it right??? dili toh mapalit ug maski pila....priceless joys and laughter akong experience in four days.... wheeeewwwww i would love to do it again.. hahahahahahahaha


thanks sa inyo tanan for making me whole.... thanks sa akong family for molding me to be a better person. thanks sa akong friends for being my wings so i can fly high. thanks for my career for giving me so much opportunity to grow up and be responsible, thanks for myles(bf) for making everything worthwhile. love you tanan!!! whahahahaahahha mwah mwah mwah

chang2x

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"Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it."

I was so disturb for a couple of days because of this guy honestly speaking he was not my ideal guy swear,promise,as in!!! hahahaha grabeh ka harsh.. bitaw this guy was a friend since high school, so mga almost 7 years nami anih nag share sa tanan namong kabuang as in kabuang nga to the highest level, his one of the closest boy friend(with space take note..:) ) na naa ko, we can talk anything nga walay kaulaw. let me share with you ang gamay nga profile anih nga guy... High School time his drug adik as in shabu, mariwana and etc., barkadista, bulakbol sa school, walang sense of direction sa buhay, and someone who attempted suicide. Mao na cya. But even he grown up to be like that we are friends and no one can stop that, never man naku na ginatan aw nga aspect sa life, I always believed nga naa chance ang tanan to change(naks!) and I am one of the witness sa iyang changes :) . We spend almost 7 years of friendship, though dili kaayo gakita pero at least we tried to be connected in anyway. I was there adtong time nga inlove kaayo cya sa akong friend(yes close friend namong duha), I was there adtong time nga nabroken hearted cya, adtong time nga hopeless siya and adtong time nga ga struggle siya emotionally. inana ang closeness. Naa pud siya adtong time nga nag graduate ko sa college, he spend time with me sa akong ups and down moments. though late usahay ang mga updates pero we keep each other updated. basta inana me nga magababarka(take note magbabarkada soooo daghan me). But for the past few days, the 2 of us never expected this time to come. He become so attached sa ako, same with me to him don't know when nag start basta it happen lang jud unexpectedly. I really hate the fact and I almost deny reality, I was just thinking that it is not true and it is not happening but wala koy choice it was me,I,myself telling me nga I'm enjoying every detail when I'm with him and I can't get rid of it. So mao natoh though we talk things over nah it was cleared nga naay feelings ekclavu but we need to consider other things so we are not on rush and he promised to wait for my decision man pud, pero kung dili cya kahulat okey ra pud sa ako at least I was so true sa akong self when I'm with him. So we are not officially on guys but getting there wahahahahahahah maybe unya,ugma,next day,next month, next year anytime pwede magkami okey?.... though i know galisod me adjust pero cge lang ah, if its worth the risk, i'll take the chances with him (hahahahahahha) ang mag react anih kanih napud akong mga friends nga tala2x.... hahahahaha expected najud nih bah...
PERO I LOVE YOU ALL!! wahahahahahahahha lols next blog naku hatag sa updates.. hhaahahahhahahah