Mao ning babae... lols

I don't care if you have a boyfriend/husband or girlfriend/wife right now.

I don't care if you are a guy or a woman.Just read this, it will make a difference

If only everyone could see this and understand it.

When she stares at your mouthKiss her
When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy because she thinks she's stronger than you

Grab her and don't let go
When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her
When she's quiet
Ask her what's wrong
When she ignores you
Give her your attention
When she pulls away
Pull her back
When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful
When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word
When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind
When she's scaredProtect her
When she steals your favourite hoodieLet her keep it and sleep with it for a night
When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh
When she doesn't answer for a long timereassure her that everything is okay
When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up
When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand
When she grabs at your handsHold her's and play with her fingers
When she bumps into you;bump into her back and make her laugh
When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold
When she looks at you in your eyes
don't look away until she does
When she says it's over she still wants you to be hers
Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything-
When she's mad
hug her tight and don't let go-
When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you-
Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her-
Treat her like she's all that matters to you-
Stay up all night with her when she's sick-
Watch her favourite movie with her or her favourite show even if you think it's stupid-

Give her the world.-
Let her wear your clothes
-When she's bored and sad,
hang out with her-Let her know she's important.-
Don't talk about other girls around her-
Kiss her in the pouring rain-
When she runs up to you crying,
the first thing you say is:"Whose butt am i kicking baby?"

new life

Ang clinic nah nag medical sa akin, happy ako wala namang nakita. Akala ko nga bagsaka ko lahat eh from Urine to physical exams pero ito ako ngayon healthy and strong... hehheehhe

Ang tagal kung hinintay ang work na toh and now here I am on my 3rd day. Wala pa ko masyado ginagawa pero masaya ako here sa office. Wala masyado akong kausap puro PC and laptop lang kasi ang inaatupag namin kaya at least concentrate lang sa work...My team mates are good medyo busy nga lang sila pero okey lang wala pa naman daw akong task masyado kaya ito ako ngayon hintay2x muna ang explore2x...

I am happy just today nakuha ko yong ID ko here sa chartis. Cool nga eh makakapasok na ako sa door nang swipe2x lang.. heheheh galing naman! Inaasam ko din toh nah mag work sa ganitong company. hehehehehehe

The company who open the doors for me. Hindi ko talaga inakala na makukuha ako kasi my CV was rejected by RCG I.T kasi daw bumagsak ako sa CV screening but glad tumawag sila ulit para sabihin na for final interview nah ako. WHeewww! my daimoku really works . Sarap nang buhay maging Buddhist kahit may problema ka pa maghahanap ka nang saya sa gitna nang problema. Gohonzon Sama is really my best friend.

Goodbye MY LOVE...

Dear Philip,

My hands are trembling as I wrote this letter for you. It is odd to call you by your name and not the usual "MYLES"(MY loves) I used to call you. My life has turn up side down and I guess I need to moved on. Miles away from each other is driving me insane, I still hope and and patiently wait for you in vain. Time passed and I realized its almost 4 months ago,and your no longer mine and it's time to let you go. My hope of getting back together keep me working everyday, but I think it's really time to say my sweetest goodbye and learn to face my lonely nights. Your love lifted my spirit so high. Your twinkling smile brought meaning to my life, your tender kiss give me strength so I could carry on, but MY LOVE I need to moved on-allow me for the last time to call you that name.

In all my life I was never been so happy like I was with you. My heart is at peace when I am in your arms. I can always see lifetime when you are by my side, but this time I need to seek life alone. This would be hard and no one say it will be easy, but I guess this would me save me from being drifted apart from reality. Fairytale story doesn't always end with happy ending, sometimes it ended with the very saddest ending-let our story be counted. Rest assured that I am happy with the 7 months 27 days and 19 hours I am with you. You will always have the place in my heart that I will kept for the rest of my life.

My wishes for you is always the best. I hope one day you will find what your looking for.

With all my heart,

chang

Missing You

No words I write can ever say,

How much I miss you every day.

As time goes by the loneliness grows,

How I miss you... nobody knows.

I think of you in silence,

I often speak your name.

But all I have are memories,

And a photo in a frame.

No one knows my sorrow,

No one sees me weep.

But the love I have for you,

Is in my heart and mine to keep.

I never stopped loving you,

I don't think I ever will.

Deep inside my heart,

You are with me still.

Heartaches in this world are many,

But mine is worse than any.

My heart still aches as I whisper low,

"I need you... and miss you so."

The things we feel so deeply,

Are often the hardest things to say.

But I just can't keep quiet anymore,

So I'll tell you anyway.

There is a place in my heart,

That no one else can fill.

I love you... and I always will.

~ anonymous ~

The ring part 2

It took me long time and enough guts to give this ring sa ila. Every time I have time to think about them I always ask myself unsaon naku ug bawi sa oras nga wala ko sa ilang side. I admit, I am always busy or should I say I always keep myself busy, and how much more this time nga i'll be leaving the place (CDO). I am attending my personal dilemmas right now, and I can't even tell them how am I badly hurt. I can't find the words, thats why I pretend so they won't worry. Things will change since I will give this ring to them, this well be the day that I decided to continue life with a very heavy heart. This ring will help me to at least remind myself that I have reasons to live and I will not loss hope and i will hold on into them. Dili lage ko magpakamatay promise! hahahahahaha

mix_moh

Wheeww!!! the collage making contest in Albay is a success. I was too happy nga early morning palang I recieved a call coming from papart telling me nga ni champion ang among school for Albay competition. My mentor momy lacson talked to me and told me nga "anak we won", I am proud and happy that they made it on top. hehehehe Though gamay rajud nga time akong nahatag para mag paint atoh akong draft for the collage but it was all worth it... hehehehe mix idea cya with my artist friend pero same school me- he is the artist of the year for 2005, & ako ang artist of the year for 2004. hehehehehehe happy kaayo ko...

A good friend of mine is in deep pain. He texted me and ingon cya nga his really in trouble. Sa iyang pagka buang ang pagka kalo2x as in cya pa ang naay daku kaayo nga problema sa kinabuhi. He 1st visited me at home with teary eyed, pinkish cheek saying "chang wala na ko kasabot, si mama nag sugod na. Nabuang napud akong mama". I really can't find the guts kung unsaon naku ang situation, I just really listened and less talk. Eventually na kalma cya and he leave, but with my assurance nga naa ra ko if he needed someone to talked too. Later he teexted me if I can visit him at home, he needed me badly. With the help of my other friend, i visted him at home and try to talked and at least bond with his family. Their was a time nga naka estorya me 3 nga kami lang. He really break down and cry. I can feel his pain but unsaon naku nga matabangan naku cya. I really dont know what to do and where to start everything. I let tears roll down on his face and let him feel the pain. Lisod kaayo mabutang sa inato nga sitwasyon sa kinabuhi. hahay...

I really cant imagine sa akong smile nga nakuha nanih naku nga jersey. Gawas sa naa niy sentimental value as in, I've visited hell just to get this. As in it took me 1 year to retrieved this shirt as in!!! but chadang! naa nah cya sa ako again. Hay grabeh jud naku nga ngisi when I get this maski basa pa tawon kay gilabhan sa akong friend ako najud gikuha kay dili na naku makaya nga mawala pa ang jersey sa akong mga kamot kay dugay ko nanih gipangita nga jersey. But sad to admit wala na ang naghatag pero at least akong mabuhat nga akong gi estorya nga "kuwaon jud nih naku nga jersey" hahay salamat ako jud nabuhat abi naku ug dili naku mabuhat akong gi estorya... :D Hellu my jersey again. Welcome to my life pero you'll be part sa akong box sa memorabilia huh kay murag naa ko sa recovery stage as for now... pero happy ko nga nabalik naka sa akong life... hehehehehe

Its a sad day coz wake sa mama ako batchmate but honestly dili cya inana ka sad coz nahimo namong bonding moment with my batchmate sa highschool. I really enjoy the road trip namo when its time nga mamauli nah. We are four motorcycle nga ga parade sa dalan ug nag hinatora sa isig balay namo. lols. I also enjoy the long talks sa akong mga old friends with all the sharing2x of everthing. We just realized nga mga tiguwang nami. Ang topic as in menyo2x and work. Pero the happy part is when sila akong kauban dili ko tiguwang, we always felt nga we are still the high school student of bayabas national high school... Joey (botiktoy), joey(papa joey), maac( joel acma), kuya litoy, mark,popong,ric2x,jesset, mommy lacson,gigi and me enjoyed the laugh trips nga naa me.. wheeewww! by Feb 15 daw bonding moments napud namo... ang saya naman nito... I will surely miss this when I'll go to manila....

10 Ways to Get Through a Breakup Without Breaking

1) While moving on is important in time, letting yourself really feel all you’re feeling now is just as important. As we’ve said, guys can often feel pressures to be more stiff-upper-lippy than girls, or to pretend like a breakup doesn’t bother you. But most people, of all genders, even when a breakup is wanted, have feelings of sadness, anger, insecurity or disappointment about a breakup. It’s up to you who you share your feelings with, but make sure you’re at least giving yourself time and space alone to just experience those feelings and let them have their own flow.

2) Express yourself. Expressing how we feel is part of dealing with how we feel and moving forward. Any of us can use creative ways to express our feelings, such as through journaling, a creative art like photography or music, through physical activities, what have you. You know you best, and know your best places to let it all out: use them.

3) Plenty of us, after a breakup, may pine or obsess over a lost partner with photographs or mementos of the relationship. But at a certain point – depending on how you’re doing, and if you feel like those things are doing you good or not – it’s time to put that stuff away. You don’t have to ritually destroy them (and may regret it later if you do), but putting them all in a box, and then somewhere well out of sight, can help a lot.

4) Reclaim the things you enjoy and had less time for during your relationship. Obviously, the more relationships we have, the less time we usually have for ourselves, and intimate relationships can take up a lot of time and energy. Doing the things we love and have previously had less time for helps heal our hearts and also remind us of who we are, by ourselves, not just who we are in a relationship.

5) Find some solid support. For sure, not all of your friends may have the emotional maturity or life experience to understand how you’re feeling. Some may even be really bad choices to share with: a person who teases you about being sad, or who just disses your ex endlessly isn’t likely to be a good support. But do reach out to people you think may be supportive. That might be a teacher or a coach, one of your parents or a sibling, or a friend of any gender. If you’re having a supremely tough time with a breakup, finding a counselor to help you through it can also be a good step, whether that’s the counselor at school or a counseling professional through your healthcare services. And if you feel like you’ve got none of these resources, you can seek out some safe spaces online to be real with how you feel, like our message boards.

6) Deal with your breakup in ways which are emotionally healthy for you and your ex. It’s common to feel angry or bitter after a breakup, but some people act on those feelings in ways that aren’t healthy, and which range from masochistic to downright dangerous. To be clear, ceasing to do all the things you enjoy doing, or which you need to do – going to school or work, eating, sleeping, bathing -- is not healthy. Self-harm through things like cutting, drinking or doing drugs, high-risk sexual behavior or suicide attempts are not healthy. Refusing to give your ex space and time – such as by texting or emailing them over and over again – or allowing an ex to refuse to give you space and time is not healthy. Hopefully it’s obvious, but blackmailing, manipulating, stalking, harassing, or physically or sexually attacking an ex in any way are not only unhealthy, but abusive and criminal.

7) If you and/or an ex want to try and sustain a platonic friendship, be sure you both are giving yourself some space and time first, and also set and maintain healthy boundaries. As well, check in with your or their motivations for a friendship: often enough, some people want to “stay friends” not to actually be friends, but because they are either having a tough time letting go, or because they hope a friendship may help get the romantic relationship back. The same goes double for breaking up, then walking right back into a friends-with-benefits scenario. If neither person has had time to deal with the breakup, you can be very sure that someone is going to get hurt and feel very confused by casual sex – though sex with a recent ex is hardly casual – when a relationship is supposed to be over.

8) Try and avoid rebounding by giving yourself time to be single after a relationship. Sure, now and then we rebound anyway, or a new relationship just happens. Sometimes, a new relationship may even be why the old one ended. But most of us need some time to grieve and reflect after a breakup: if we don’t have time to feel our feelings, as well as time to learn the lessons of our last relationships and the breakup, our next one might not be any better than the last. Too, after a breakup, we so often feel so lonely, having been used to having a partner, that relationship choices made hot on the heels of a breakup don’t tend to be our best.

9) Remember that a breakup is not likely about how much you suck, or how unwanted or undesirable you are. When relationships don’t work, it’s rarely about one person, which shouldn’t be surprising since relationships are necessarily about more than one person. Rather, relationships that end, fall apart or just don’t work tend to be about how any two people find that their personalities, lifestyles, goals, communication styles, and any number or kind of needs and wants don’t mesh or play nicely together. As well, breakups are even more common or frequent with younger people than with older folks because younger people are still growing and changing so much that a partnership that feels perfect one month can feel like a poor fit the next. Even the most awesome people in the world cannot have a great love relationship with just anyone: we can be as great as we want to be, but that doesn’t mean we’ll be great together with everyone. It’s helpful to try not to look at breakups as failures, even though it can sure feel that way. Moving on or away from something that isn’t working for one or both people isn’t a failure, it’s a movement towards both learning and finding what does work for them.

10) … and when it’s time, be open to other relationships again. It can be so easy, especially when a relationship is over, to only remember the good stuff or for our good times to seem even better than they actually were. If you’re getting over one of our first loves, it might feel like you’ll never have those feelings again, or never have them so hugely. You might also feel scared to try getting involved intimately again. All of those feelings are normal, but chances are, you will likely have those feelings again, and while we always risk hurt or heartbreak when we get close to others, those are the risks we take to have the good stuff. A broken heart can hurt like hell, to be sure, but broken hearts do heal in time.

The Ring...

Ako ning gipalit nga ring the day I knew wala najud chance ang tanan. The day I break down and cry. Honestly I am wearing it on the left hand where dapat ang wedding and engagement ring mabutang. Why inani akong gibuhat? coz since the day I am using it I told myself nga from that day I will engage myself to life again. No more worries, no more pains, no more hurt feelings, no more heartbreaks. Dili man sa ingon nga dili najud nih naku agian ang tanan pero I will try to live life like nothing happens. I will love life like I never suffered pain. I will indulge myself like it is my last and I will welcome surprises like a daily miracle. And one day I will love once more like it is forever. I will just simply live life like everyday is my last.AKo nalang eenjoy ang tanan kaysa naman mag worry ko always sa akong daily nga circumstances. Though I thought of it as lisod but with all the help of my dear friends and family gakaya baya naku ang tanan. So since now until I saw the man who will live life with me forever I will try to treasure this ring para sa akong commitment sa akong life. Bahala muingon ang mga tao nga engage ko or whatever. bahala nah.... heheheheheeh problema nanah ninyo people... heheheheh basta I love life and I will love this ring... hehehehehe

I will give my best....promise!

It was January 17,2010 that taweng invited me para daw mahimong panauhing pandanggal sa ilang thanks giving for Sto.Nino. si taweng ang amigo nga lisod kaayo balibaran, so i said yes sa ilang invitation. I was surpised nga kids from a very low class family ang naa, I really observed everything. Ang uban gisi ang sinena, and uban buslot ang shorts, ang uban nagka pita2x ang tiil ug nawong. kung imo jud tan awon they are the less fortunate once. I am touched about sa situation nila. Napamata ko nga naa pay mga tao nga lisod pa sa tanang lisod. Nagsugod na ilang thanks giving and naa ko didto financially nag support maski gamay. Nalingaw kaayo ko watching the kids nga magsige jud ug smile everytime makadaug maski wala tawon sakto nga prices. Pero the experienced is good, nakarealized ko nga daghan pa ko pwede buhaton sa akong life. Daghan pa ko pwede tabanggan. Though sa una naka attend naku ug inani nga events but karon nga mas mature naku mas gaka feel na naku ang ilang panginanhanglan sa kinabuhi. I am lucky enough nga makatabang ko sa lain tao. And from this moment on ibalik na naku ang ginabuhat sa akong family sa una. At least once a year nga thanks giving for the less fortunate. Dili ko mag promise pero I will surely give my best...

Akala ko okey nah...

It's more than a month you said goodbye but bakit ganun it feels like it was yesterday. I still suffer pain, I still feel I'm falling, falling to deep in the ground. Ba't ganun? Ba't ganito? Alam ko naman matatag ako, pusong bato at kaya ko lahat, why someone like him kills me a million times. Why is it hard to let him go? Unfair naman nang buhay, masyado na bah akong matatag kaya pinapasuko na ako? Ba't bah ganun? nagmahal lang naman ako di bah? sobra pa nga sa aking inakala. Nagbigay naman ako di bah? mali bang di ko ipagdamot ang puso kung gustong umibig at maging maligaya? Puny*ta naman uu, kung pwede ko lang hatakin puso ko palabas sa katawan kung pagod, hinugot ko nat tinapon sa ilog o inilibing man sa lupang ilalim. Kung pwede ko lang palitan sa isipan ko ang lahat nang nangyari , ginawa ko nah simula nang siya'y lumisan. Putik naman uu!!! bat bah ganun, labo mo mundo ko, hinamak ko naman lahat ah! sinugal na pati buong pagkatao ko, ano pa bah ang kulang? Sumuko nah ako sa mundo mong tinawag mong pag-ibig, ngunit ba't ba sakit pa rin iyong dulot? Ganun bah talaga ang laro mo? oh sadyang mapaglaro lang ikaw sa tao?Pag-ibig may di ko minsan maunawaan pero hayaan ko nalang munang sakit at pighati pagduhasan, iisipin kung sa huli magiging patas ang laban!!!