The man I fell inlove with

1st boy i fell in love with. It was 16th of February 2004 5:45 pm when I told him I am in love with him. His the 1st guy na nakapag pa "oo" sa tigasing babaeng tulad ko, I really can't imagine how he did it pero didto ko nagluya sa iyang eagerness to win me. He was my 1st love and I will never forget him. I was so lucky his the first man I offer my heart with though bata pa kaayo me that time. I can still remember the sundo in the dawn coz dili ko magpasabay sa hapon coz kami jud mag uban ni pearl-watta childish act.. hahahahah I can still remember the salute of his MP's kung mulabay naku-kilig mode, and take note naa pa ang iyang 1st letter sa ako nga mag cge kog katawa kung akong mabasa.lols.. Our relationship last for about 5 months- 2 months officially on, 3 months call off. Sad part of the relationship is that we are both young at hearts ,we really don't know how to handle such things and we have lots of things to know. So one day we broke up though I love him that much(puppy love) pero i really need to let him go, for us to grow and be mature. The break-up is painful coz i know dili niya gusto but I was to eager to prioritized my study (skolar ko noh ko that time) and i think dili naku ma handle both studies and him at the same time, but we agree nga atimanon niya iyang life same with mine. 2 years ko ayha naka recover sa iya. 2 long years waiting kung unsa iyang buhaton to settle iyang life but nothing happened.I lost hoped and learned to let him go.

The 2ND guy i fell in love with March 28,2006 @12:00 am I commit my heart with him. 2 years is enough to gain my heart back which the 1st guy took it away. With him is a fairy tale a dream I wish i will never woke up. He let me feel that loving someone like me is gift, a gift he will keep for the rest of his life. He tried almost everything just to keep the relationship work, 1 month that we are officially on, a month that he assure me that I am the only girl he loves, a month of hug that I keep missing everyday, a month of love that even myself wonder if I deserve his love. It is just a month but it took me 2 years to suffer the pain, in 2 years I keep missing him, 2 years his running through my mind,2 years I keep saving the pieces of my heart which puzzled me how to make it whole again. And in some time in 2 years we tried to work things out but we both failed with our desire and it is painful like hell(waaaahh)...But "Baby" 2 years is enough to start my life again.

5Th day of May 2009 9:45 pm @ cyvilnet cafe my heart recovered and willing to take the chances with him. Honestly his not my ideal guy, I never imagine spending my life with him. But having him in my life now is a blessing that would take a lifetime to thank for. When he holds my hand, he make me feel that theirs no letting go, when he hugs me... it assures me that having him is worthwhile, when he kiss me goodbye... he let me feel that he will be thinking of me all the time we're apart, when he smile every time we argue... I can't help myself but forgive him with all his faults, and the very truth i know when I'm with him is that "Loving him is too easy and I don't know if I can let him go". We are enjoying every detail of our relationship and on process to make it forever(I hope so) , though I really don't know if what tomorrow will offer, but as for now "myles" is enough to enjoy life and enjoy the real life fairy tale with him. This time... theirs no waking up because reality is better than a dream.

All of them are part of my life, they will keep reminding me that life is full of surprises. When your heart is broken you'll learn to fixed it again and live once more. Someone will come and help you regain everything you've lost but the man who makes you whole is the same man who'll break you once more. But learn and love again... bring back what you've lost coz loving is not losing, but loving is learning. Love and love again until you'll know his the real man for you.Take chances and take risk this is life and we must learn to deal with it...

4 days vacation... worth it!!! i could not ask for more

"I would maintain that thanks are the highest form of thought; and that gratitude is happiness doubled by wonder."

yeah! wheewww watta vacation and birthday nga naa ko this year.. 22 years but i was never been happy like this for my entire life... hahahahhaha let me tell you the detailed story for the 4 days vacation...

1st day may 28,2009- midnight palang my smile is abot hanggang tinga nah coz my close friend pearl nag count down sa akong birthday .. hahahahha she really makes me laugh adto nga time she's such a sweet friend, and i do really treasure that friendship with her. when i wake up early in the morning i cant help myself smiling kay grabeh nga greetings coming from special guys and gals who is part of my box office life...hahahaha later on my bday myles(my bf) told me nga dili cya makajoin sa akong bday celebration coz 15 hours cya mag duty next day... kinda sad coz it is a special day of mine tapos wala cya... but i dont want to ruin the day because of that news so ako giset akong mind nga mag enjoy japun ko.. my gays(girls jud na sila) friends will der so kablo ko nga i will enjoy the night. 7 pm is the assembly time but before that i visited my mama( i called her mama lang pero aunt naku cya) in greenhills it was such a nice feeling to reminisce the memories when she's with us. and I keep missing her. Pero life must move on, dili pud guro cya gusto nga i'll be miserable kay wala na cya.. its 10 long years but still i can remember the pain, but that pain give me smiles when i can remember how loving her heart is. I miss you mama and i will keep missing you ...I spend almost 1 hour and half sitting and talking to her, i cant help myself.. i always shed tears when i'm with her but still i assure her im okey... so much for that, its party time!! 7:30 i arrived at the venue.. kinda late pero okey lang.. pearl give me smile when i arrived at loretos she gave me a fila slippers which i really like. other gays friends with der lovers arrived and the party started... we sing a lot of songs and played billiards all night and it was fun, and it was a surprised that my myles(bf) surprised me with the flowers and a kiss , i was speechless for a couple of seconds but nakarecover ra ko, he just kiss me and then everything was fine.And honestly that made my bday complete. Later that night i am too busy opening the gifts from my close friends. jojo gave me a terno nga pangtulog and i really like it as in, ailyn gave me a pants nga pang dula badminton and swear nice ayo cya kay sakto kaayo sa ako, a pillow named meg ang hatag ni jv sa ako, dili najud ko hulam pillow sa iya sa ofice kung matulog ko sa hapon , a brown shoulder bag with price tag ang hatag ni aisa.. wala ning bataa nih, a nice and cute blanket naman ang hatag nih ating.... hahaahaha so i end up the day with a big smile and memories which i will treasure for life.. wahehehhehehhehehe its a long day but it was fun.. i swear!!! salamat sa inyong tanan!!!
2nd day may 29,2009- sabog gikan sa night nga bilar.. hahahaha i just visited my family at home, nakig dula ako mga pamangkins and later sa evening my highschool buddies visited me at home and it was fun spending memories with my old friends. whetwhew taweng is such a funny guy he always rock our world.again it was a happy day..

3rd day may 30,2009- happy bday aisa!!! yeah yeah yeah!!! mowing palang busy ayo me nag grocery for a family day pagkasunday late celebration napud sa akong bday. after lunch i txted jv nga magkita me kay ako hatod akong gift kang aisa but to make the story short wala madayon kay daghan daw cya lakaw and nabadtrip ko... hahahahhaha
but because na badtrip ko niadto ko kang flor kauban naku nga buddhist and nag chikka me until hapon hahahahhaha grabeh nga katawa namo as in... and adto nalang dayon ko kang aisa para personally hatag akong gift with cindy nga ako pud friend way back in high school. So the night of aisa has come and same place loretos among venue... rain is pouring so hard that time and nagpadungang pa akong pus on nga skit pud pero the party must go on.. hehehehe at sometime sa among pag uban walay conversation sa amo ni JV and I'm not used to it, so eventually ako siya duolan and i apologized for what had happen na carried away lang ko and both sides are forgiven already.. hehehehehe and we continue the party..hahhahaah it was fun and we enjoy the night as in. .another year for aisa to cherished and treasure.
4th day may 31,2009- wheeewww family day and late celebration sa akong bday with my family and friends as in lingaw kaayo ang day completo akong mga igsoon except for abby(nasa LA) and cory(missing) nga wala ka join.. may pamangkin enjoyed the pool as in nahaponan gud ug kaligo... wheeeeewwwww myles also got the chance to spend moments with my family and officially accepted na cya.. hehheehe i keep loving him na hinuon everyday.. hahahahahha later this day i realized that I COULD NOT ASK FOR MORE... if my life would end ugma dayon it is all worth it!! grabeh na kaayo ko ka enjoy... unsa pa akong pangitaon i got family( though its not perfect), got lovings friends, naa koy career, naa koy myles... unsa pa akong pwede pangayoon di bah?? i was so lucky i have them in my life... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh now tell me its all worth it right??? dili toh mapalit ug maski pila....priceless joys and laughter akong experience in four days.... wheeeewwwww i would love to do it again.. hahahahahahahaha


thanks sa inyo tanan for making me whole.... thanks sa akong family for molding me to be a better person. thanks sa akong friends for being my wings so i can fly high. thanks for my career for giving me so much opportunity to grow up and be responsible, thanks for myles(bf) for making everything worthwhile. love you tanan!!! whahahahaahahha mwah mwah mwah

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