decide now or now nah talaga....

Once in your life have you been into a situation were you need to decide on something that you don't want to think at this moment of time??? ohhh! anyway maybe yes, maybe no... Let's rephrase the question, Is marriage a huge decision??? Considering my age at 22 is it too early to decide for this matter?? Honestly I got lots of plan for my life and it really drives me crazy thinking about this topic. Morning today I visited my doctor and have my check-up and clearance. My doctor is happy about my recovery, She even told me I look good and doing good. Its been an open book that a month ago I undergo a surgical operation because of ovarian cyst. When my doctor and I talked she again asked me even beg me to get married as early as possible, she honestly told me about the risk I have right now. She's giving me and my BF a short time to things over- about a month( I must undergo vaccine & pap smear test), as in 30 days. She even told me she can't recommend me to take pills or anything that could lead me not to bear a child. According to her it is ASAP as (AS SOON AS POSSIBLE)... After the test I must bear a child sooner not later...waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh....Is my BF ready for all the responsibilities?? Am I ready to be a mother?? Do I have capability to raise a child?? Actually it freaks me out thinking all of this, it is too early? But do I have a choice?? It really scares me to death but this is reality *gaga mode*...

I really don't know what to do.... Things puff up on my mind, kesyo bulagan nalang naku akong BF kaysa naman ma pressure siya ug lakip and I don't want him to be with me because I'm sick (HELL NO!).I know bothered pud siya karon nga time because of me... I want him and I want myself to think things over...Maybe month of break-up?-maybe this time we can have enough time to think. waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh IT REALLY DRIVES ME CRAZY!!! 911 RESCUE ME!!!

Call it a day Chang.....