Sadyang kay hirap....

Sa araw2x nalang, simula nang ikaw lumayo.

Pinilit ko at sinikap, nagmakawa,nagsumamo

lumuhod may kulang, umiyak mang parang temang

Sadyang kay hirap kalimutan pag ibig na iyong sinimulan

Paglisan mo'y sadyang kay hirap

Paglimot sa iyo ay ganun bah ka saklap.

And hirap mahal and hirap hirap

Sadyang puso koy ikaw pa rin ang hanap

Ngunit ang madilim na araw koy magliliwanag din

Paglimot sa iyo ay makakamtan ko rin

Nadapa man ako kahapon,bukas, ngayon

Mahal tandaan mo ako rin ay babangon...

Puso ko may sugatan at sadyang wasak

Hahayaan kung pagdusaan ang lahat

Hahamakin ko ang mundo at makikipaglaban

At isang araw ikaw ay aking kakalimutan.

Sinobok na ako nang tadhana

Hinamon na ako sa buhay ni bathala

Ngunit buhay man ay nasadlak sa pagsudurusa

Lilimutin kita,kahit mahirap harapin ang umaga.

PLEASE MAKE HIM COME BACK HOME...

Back Home

MYMP

How can I stand the day alone

I recall the times when our love was thrown

And how will I get through the day

My tears are falling down

Remembering the words you said

Tell me that our love won’t fade away

[chorus]

Can anybody tell me how a perfect love went wrong

Can anybody heal my heart and mend my broken soul

If there’s someone who can count my tears and all my sorrow

Oh please make him come back home

You promised a lifetime of love that will never fade

Until the day the sun no longer shines

But you’ve let my heart died

You left me all alone I’m grieving now

Coz you found someone new

Tell me this is not a game you play

[repeat chorus]

I don’t wanna go on without

No more sleepless nights because of you

Hold me tight don’t ever let me go

Don’t let me go

[repeat chorus]

Read the lyrics and I hope you will try to understand....

I'm just a lonely girl in this crowded world

If dying will take all my pains away- please take me!

A day is always a torture for me, a day without you seems the most miserable day of my entire life. It's always a long day for me & it's always a tiring day coz you keep running though my mind. I wish I hug him more, for me not to miss him like this. I wish I said enough for him to know I love him so much. I wish I assure him that I was so madly in love with him. I wish I am strong enough to let you go. I wish I am brave enough to face everything. Damn! I love him and it hurts like hell. When will thing ends? Please make it sooner... Please! I'm begging,with head down and on bended knees,please make it soon...

Paalam...

PAALAM

Sakit may di malimot

Puso may puno nang kirot

Isip may lito at gulong gulo

mahal tanong ko paano? paano na ako?

Isipin ko mang mabuti

Hindi ko pa rin malagay sa aking kukuti

Pagmamahal koy nilimot muna...

bakas bah nang kahapon ay burado nah...

hilingin ko man sa mga diwata

lumuhod man ako kay bathala

tawagin ko man lahat nang dyosa

pakiusapan ko man lahat nang pwersa

Hihingin ko sana "ikaw pa sinta"'

Unan ko man sa gabi ay basa

pagluha koy hindi man mawala

Di ko pa rin malimot,mahal pa rin kita

Ipagsigawan man sa mundo sinta...

Ngunit kamay moy di ko nah maabot

Pagmamahal ko sa iyo ay nilimot

Mukha moy di ko nah mahaplos

luha hirang ang iyong idinulot

Limutin man kitay sadyang kay hirap

Pagmamahal mo may aking hanap

Pusot isip man ikaw ang laman

Ayaw ko man sabihin ang salita hirang

Ngunit mahal "PAALAM"...

Pangako lilimutin kita...

Paano ko maiiwasang hindi pumatak luha sa mga aking mata?

Paano ko sasabihing "okey" ang lahat kahit siya ang gustong kasama?

Bakit kay hirap sabihing "kami'y wala na"...

Bakit kay damot nang tadhana...

Hindi pa bah sapat ang ilang araw kung pagluha?

Taon bah para malimot ka?

Sobrang sakit na, at hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko pa...

Kailan bah huhupa ang sakit na aking nadarama?

Inakala kung ikaw ang buhay ko...

At ako rin bubuo nang pagkatao mo...

Mahal nagkamali ba ako?

At ito ngayon sawi at bigo sa pag ibig mo...

Kailan mo tatapusin ang lahat bathala??

Kailan ko sasabihing tanggap ko nah ??

Kailan ko malalamang siya'y limot ko nah?

Kailan ko iiwan ang bakas nang kahapong puno ng saya?

Lumuha may kulang,

paglimot may hirap aking hirang...

Sakit man ang naging sukli sa pag ibig kong wagas

Hayaan mo't magwawakas din ang lahat...

Minutong nasasaktan ako,

Secondong dumurugo puso ko,

Sa bawat patak nang luha ko,

At sa bawat araw nang sakit dala nang pag ibig mo

Bibilangin ko ang taon, kahit pa ilang siglo...

Malilimot kita, at yan ay pinapangako ko....

No one will understand...

People keep saying they understand, but honestly they will never understand. They will never understand coz they never been in your shoe. They don't understand coz they are not here,where I am standing at. You don't understand coz you have a family you can run and share your burdens with. You have your mom who will love you whoever and whatever you are.A mom who will took good care of you when you are sick. A mom who will give a hand when you needed her most. A mom who will dry your tears if your crying. You people will never understand coz you have your dad who will teach you whats right and wrong. A dad who will protect you in every danger, in every situation. A dad who is willing to took good care of the heart of yours coz he knew it is fragile. A dad who will give you advice when you wanted one.YOU PEOPLE DO HAVE A GIFT CALLED FAMILY. Look at me?? Do I have something?? I can never lost anything coz I don't have something-WALA NAY MAWALA SA AKO! Sorry if I am being rude again but I just want to share all my disappointments in life. I look so brilliant in front of you- Happy go lucky,career woman, some may say "YOU HAVE EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO HAVE IN LIFE".Did you hear all you voices guys??? Did you hear all the words you say??? Honestly I don't need you to understand I just want you to be there.Enough for me to gain strength.Enough to overcome my daily task. Enough to continue life. Enough to have reasons to move forward. Even YOU whose reading this will be enough for me not to get tired to discover life over and over. A touch is very much appreciated, a hug can complete my day & a dinner can give me goodnight sleep, even your voice will make me strong- enough to face everything. Fighting is my mastery but this time please just be with me even I know its too hard for me to conquer the battle. Too hard :'(...

Again I don't want you to understand coz you never will, I just want you to be there and be a friend that would be enough.

People please STOP!

Why people keep asking "Hey chang wer's your boyfriend???" can I tell them "hey guys next question please" your freaking me out...Alangan man lugar noh with smile on your face saying " hey people we just broke-up are you happy now?? damn it!" Greer I hate the feeling nga people is looking for him- did he give a damn thinking about me??? heller common guys nothing is constant. If only I could admit the fact, but its too painful, sh*t! This coming days will be so much fun-hahahhaha coz people will keep asking me with this same question...paksy*t! But do I have a choice??? Haaayyyy pwede 2 years after na dayon just like sa movies "2 years after" so that people change, people WILL not be used to see him with me, people will stop asking about us, people will stop saying "hey chang okey rah nah you'll get over him", every party they stop asking "oh aha man imong uyab? Is he coming?", and people will stop saying I understand though WALA, people will stop asking "why so sudden? you look good together "sayang""... If only I could have one wish, just one wish. I rather wished that I could not feel this pain over and over again,this wish will lead me not to reminisce the sad part only the happy and most memorable one.It really hurt swear and I really don't have any idea how to start a new day again. Again as for now I don't know how, but I will regain all my strength to start a new life but this time "ALONE". Allow me to write everything in here so that one day I will laugh of every words and feelings I have for him and I hope that day is sooner than ever. I'm having hard time coping things up. And my eyes are tired crying for the same reason. One day I will let him know that he drag me to hell but theres always a heaven in every person holding my hand- and they are to many to be conquered by you...

I WILL GET USED WITH THIS PAIN!!! I KNOW I WILL!

NOW WHAT???

Tormenting days, hours of misery, every minute is a torture and every seconds is an agony. Love is totally b*llsh*t!!! Love takes my pride. Love leaves me the pieces of a my heart totally broken and damage.Yeah right guys! allow me to give out all the sh*t in this blog..Maybe this can help me...

Just today I end up everything.I kept wondering, NOW WHAT???!!!

How can I face tomorrow, now that I know that I can't see his smile again...

How can I start all my plans, now that I know his part of everything I dream about...

How can I go to bed and have a goodnight sleep, if it's his face I keep seeing every time I close my eyes..

How can I woke up every morning, if I keep waking up with a wet pillow by side...

How can I sing a song, if all my songs are intended for him...

How can I hold others hand, if it's his hand that fits mine...

How can I stop crying all night, even I know his not worth the tears in my eye.

How can I plan for my future, if I keep seeing the future with him by my side...

When will be the time I'll stop longing for him...?

When will be the time I'll stop loving him...?

When will be the time he will vanish in my memory...?

When will be the time I'll forget everything we had...?

When will be the time that I wont miss him this much...?

When will be the time I will see the brighter side even his not mine...?

When will I the time I can tell him that I was happy for him...?

When will be the time I'll stop hurting this much....?

When will be the time I'll learn to let go...?

When will be the time I'll learn to live life without his face flashing every second of the day...?

Why so sudden my love??

Why you fall out of love??

Why I keep bleeding every time we're apart?

Why I keep crying every time I close my eyes?

Why can't we work this out?

Why I believed in every words you have?

Why did I long for your hugs?

Why did it happened to us....?

Why now my love?

Damn!!! Love why do this to me??? I used patience, even I'm not used to it...

I swallow my pride, even I know it's out of my league... I was so hopeful even

I know the only choice I know is "let go". I was so damn stupid looking forward

that he will love me the way I wanted to be loved.I thought that was forever, I thought that was for real. I thought fairy tales do come true. I wish I can turn back time, and choose not to love him instead...It hurts a lot, and it's freaking hell,loving him. I hope one day I will learn to let go of everything. Just give me enough time. MY*** I wont promise that it will be soon but I promise one day, I learn to smile again and learn to pick up the pieces once more...